JZ.

FINALLY!!

2009-12-15T18:15:00.002+11:00

Hohoho. it's been 5months since i touched this blog.

im just gonna do a short update. when i mean short i mean really short.

as most of u know. im home sweet home ;D so happy!
but now im bored!! wanna go port dickson la. someone organise PLEASE!

ok that's it. byeee *poof*

2009-07-18T12:29:00.002+10:00

this is gonna be an emo post. so yeah...

aiyo. i dont feel myself la! why?!! when i see my photos or my own reflection that time, i feel like im looking at a stranger la. why?!!! it is me, but it isnt too. but the best thing is when i look into my eyes, i dont feel anything familiar. it's like the eyes have no expression, no feeling. the eyes are dead.

p.s. juz for ur info, this is blog is only for my malaysian friends nia. no one in aussie knows i have this blog.

2009-07-12T18:23:00.003+10:00

OMG!! finally blogger works~ yipee~ lame i know. LOL!

anyway omg la!! i cant wait for november. but still so long. got to go through my major exam end of year first T.T

this is the latest update of my nicknames.

- GoldenSpider

- SummerBlue

- SammyBoii/Sammy

- RandomMe/Random

- Ah Zhi/Zhi

- JayZee

- JinJee (somehow some of my frens cant pronounce 'Z'. LOL!)

- JZ

- Jimbee

- Xiao Jin Jin (i hate this)

- Jin (i hate this)

- Zhi (i also hate this)

Jin is a lot of korean guy's name and Zhi is a singaporean guy's name =.= and most ppl think Jin Zhi is a guy's name. my science teacher wrote in my report: 'HIS mid-year exam was dissapointing. HE needs to improve... HIS ...' go die la. im a GIRL la!!

it's HOLIDAY now!! =D wee~ 2 weeks~ but i got so many assessments and assignments lo. got speech somemore. then the second week of hols i need to do volunteer work in a bookshop. thanks to my dearest mom lo. from 8am-1pm, which means i got to reach train station at 7am, which also means i need to wake up at 6am. and all this for NO PAY!!

im getting lazy to blog again >.<

so man man wait for the next post ba~

and HAPPY SWEET 16 to all these ppl through out the year!

schew ee, amanda, pei yun, kai xian, jia qian, clarice~

and my ah gong ah ma, stanley chai, wei tar, stanley eng.

prof thung says :

2009-07-09T17:39:00.003+10:00

gao dim the countdown timer at last :D

nice leh nice leh :D

If cant see the "What I'm Waititng For" part,

reload the page again and again and again,

or cclose and reopen the page again,

until u can see it :D

2009-06-25T22:29:00.001+10:00

i don't feel myself..
i feel like a stranger.. why??

That’s Not Me
I look at the reflection of a stranger.
Somehow alien and familiar.
It would have been funny.
If only it wasn’t true.

The owner of those eyes is me.
The owner of that nose is me.
The owner of that mouth is me.
The owner of those ears is me.

That’s not me!
That’s not me…

All of those are mine.
With the same shape and colour.
But there’s something empty and different.
It’s like the old, real me is inside.
Only covered with more flesh and scars from the past.

That’s not me!
That’s not me…

I see a person so familiar.
But her movement feels so alienated to me.
It’s her, the body’s hers.
But not those movement, not those expressions.

That’s not me!
That’s not me…

I hear a voice so familiar.
But the way it speaks, the words it says, feel so alienated to me.
It’s her, the voice’s hers.
But not those words, not those expressions.

That’s not me!
That’s not me…

What have I become?
Did someone or something claim my body?
Did I lost my soul somewhere during the journey?
Because that’s me..

2009-06-23T20:53:00.002+10:00

why the hell is blogger not working properly?!!! i cant align this, i cant change font and colour!! wtf?! anywaayy...

i finally decided which subjects to choose! FINALLY! *wipes sweat*

english advanced = 2 units
maths = 2 units
maths extension = 1 units
biology = 2 units
chemistry = 2 units
chinese = 2 units
business studies = 2 units
psychology = 1 unit
TOTAL! = 14 units

14 is actually counted a lot. so i shall be superwoman for 2 years. >.<

2009-06-21T00:30:00.002+10:00

blogger's not working again! =.=

anyway i very pening la!!! wat subjects shd i take?!!! we're choosing subjects for year 11!! i duno wat to choose!! minimum 12 units, basically each subjects got 2 units. this are the subjects im 100% taking:

english = 2 units
maths = 2 units
extension maths = 1 unit
chemistry = 2 units
biology = 2 units
phychology = 1 unit
chinese = 2 units
total = 12 units

but i wan take 1 more subject in case but i duno which to choose.

timber = 2 units
physics = 2 units
business studies = 2 units
economics = 2 units

i REALLY REALLY wanna take timber. something special and i like doing kerja kayu. BUT my theory about kayu damn teruk AND im scared i'll be the only girl AND i'll be a loner because nobody i know taking lo. wth maybe i'll even be the ONLY student taking timber. HELP!!!!! i scared suicide wei.

SHD I TAKE THE RISK?!!!

2009-06-15T17:16:00.002+10:00

im damn pissed off.

my english teacher is forcing us to read a book, called '1984'. and guess when it was written.

1949!!!

the english not to say very deep la. but deep enough that in a page there's practically 10 words i duno. =.= and its talking about the 'future'. for us no la. but for the author at that time it was. it was written in 1949 and is about 1984. and i dont understand what it is trying to say. damn blur lo.

another thing is my mom. dont even know wat to say about her. I GIVE UP!!

2009-06-12T20:28:00.003+10:00

spiders L-O-V-E me.
they seriously very attracted to me lo. don't know good or bad lo.

thank god im not scared. my friends ar. spider not on them, they already scream.once in a blue moon i stand that place and everytime sure got spider land on me. my friends stand there practically everyday, no spiders land on them.

2009-06-10T19:29:00.000+10:00

screw winter la.

lips crack till wan smile also cannot. make me look so fierce.
hands and legs numb.
skin like snake peeling skin.
wind blow, hair become bird nest.
walk a bit, teeth start clattering.
wear so much, not fat also fat la.......

im totally speechless about winter.

2009-06-05T21:12:00.006+10:00

ini ialah kerja rumah saya dari cikgu baru saya, Puan Tee Siau Thung. xD

Tee Siau Thung, berumur 15+ tahun. Pada tahun 2009, 23 November, beliau akan berumur 16 tahun. fuiyo, sudah sangat tua. Dia sangat 'qian da', sentiasa kacau saya dan kawan kawan lain. Dia pun sangat semangat, sentiasa pergi training. train train train sampai dia sendiri pun sudah nak jadi orang india. hitam sampai malam pun hampir tak nampak, nampak gigi saja. (joking, tak sengaja nak racist punya) Walau bagaimanapun, dia pun sangat baik orang, sudi jadi guru bm saya. sudah tentu la, dia suami saya, mesti harus ajar la. jika tak, dia awal awal pun mati liao.

kerja rumah saya habis! bm saya sangat baik hor? xD 100%!

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yang tadi itu ialah kerja rumah Lim Jin Zhi. Karangannya sangat banyak kesalahan dan saya sebagai gurunya akan tolong dia membetulkannya.

ini ialah kerja rumah saya dari cikgu baru saya, Professer Tee Siau Thung. xD

dia tidak menulis tajuk karangan

Prof Tee Siau Thung, berumur 15( + tidak digunakan dalam karangan) tahun. Pada 23 November tahun 2009, beliau ( ini sangat bagus ) akan berumur 16 tahun, (fuiyo tidak boleh digunakan dalam karangan) sudah sangat tua(fakta yang salah). Beliau (atas guna beliau sini pun mesti guna beliau) sangat 'qian da'(bahasa melayu tidak mempunyai perkataan demikian) , sentiasa kacau saya dan kawan-kawan lain. Beliau pun sangat semangat, sentiasa pergi perlatihan sekolah, latih latih latih sampai beliau sendiri pun telah jadi orang India. Hitam sampai ~~malam pun~~ hampir tak nampak pada waktu malam, hanya nampak giginya sahaja. (joking, tak sengaja nak racist punya) keterangan tidak perlu ditulis Walau bagaimanapun, beliau ~~pun~~ sangat baik orangnya, sudi menjadi guru Bahasa Melayu saya. Sudah tentu la, beliau suami saya, ~~mesti~~ haruslah mengajar la. Jika tidak, beliau awal-awal telah mati ~~liao~~.

kerja rumah saya habis! bm saya sangat baik hor? xD 100%! element syok sendiri tidak diperlukan

tiada menulis patah perkataan

secara keseluruhannya, pelajar ini haruslah lebih berusaha untuk mengarang karangan dengan lebih serius dan harus lebih berusaha lagi.

23/100

drpd prof thung

2009-06-05T20:51:00.003+10:00

2009-06-05T19:10:00.000+10:00

My exams are screwed.

2009-05-27T22:17:00.001+10:00

My short story written in class yesterday. The first line was given btw.

The knife was embedded deep in his chest. Fresh, bright red blood gushing out of her worst enemy’s chest. Seeing the soul leaving his body and his tortured look before his death was the best scene she ever saw.

Before this, Summer had never thought this would ever happen to her. She was always the girl in the background. No one notices her. She never breaks school rules, never even handed her work in late. She was just an ordinary girl with an ordinary life.

Up until when she was ten years old. She found out a very disturbing truth. Her mother was cheating on her father. Maybe it wasn’t such a big deal, but to an innocent ten years old, it was. Summer had always wondered who was her mother talking to late at night or in the early mornings, or when her mother receives a package with fancy clothes and stuff, or even when her mother says she was going for a business trip. Although her mother did a good job covering everything, Summer always suspected something. Maybe it was because she was her mother’s daughter, she knows her mother particularly better.

One day curiosity got the better of Summer. She decided to face her fear and find out the truth about her mother’s affair. She had kept telling herself, she was thinking too much and that her mother had and always will stay loyal to her father. But a strange, overwhelming feeling tells her the opposite.

During midnight, she crept into her parent’s room and took her mother’s cell phone out from underneath her mother’s pillow. Summer had always felt the vibration of the phone coming from underneath her mother’s pillow when she was younger. It was the place where her mother had thought would be safe from any curious hands. Not any longer.

While she read the text messages, she cried. Her suspicion was all true. Since then, every time she hears her mother on the phone, or when her mother treats her father particularly lovingly, her heart breaks that much more and she will cry herself to sleep. Night after night she cried streams of tears that will never dry. Or that’s what she thought.

When the phone calls and ‘business trips’ got more frequent, her patience ran out. Summer had been holding back for 5 years now. For those 5 years, her life had been hell. The life that she knew had changed forever. She had to wear a mask, to show that everything’s fine. The harder she laughed on the outside, the harder she cried on the inside. She couldn’t take it any longer. She confronted her mother. Her mother’s words were like sharp knifes piercing through her heart, tearing her apart. Those words ‘I love David. I don’t care whatever you or your father thinks or feels! I had enough of both of you! You’re my daughter! You’re supposed to support me! If not, just deal with it!’ she will forever remember.

From then on, her heart was as cold as ice. She never cried any longer, which was what that leads her to this situation. A knife dripping with blood in her bloody hands. A tortured corpse of the man that ruined her life right before her, soaked with blood. Her mother screaming somewhere in the room. Looking at her masterpiece, Summer smiled, imagining the man’s pain before his death. She thought ‘They forced me! I didn’t have a choice! They forced me! They forced me…’

2009-05-23T11:05:00.004+10:00

okay. this post is gonna blow ur minds. okay, maybe not.

anyway, went to chloe's hse last sunday with lisa, tina, theresa, aisha, joanne(everyone have an english name =.=)

the way to chloe's hse was scary. have to pass through these 2 very narrow and dark lorong. i kesian chloe. but le her hse.

FUIYO!!!!!!!!

it's a PALACE!!!

the moment we go in *jaws drop to the floor*! we keep saying 'OMG OMG!! THIS is YOUR house?!!!!' for me, i keep saying 'HOLY SHYT!!' my only words. totally speechless. and guess what? this hse was initially bought for HOLIDAY!! yes. holiday! wtf. holiday hse so damn grand d. i cant imagine her hse in china. =.= anyway this hse is old, like really from the 70s, the earliest. structure of it was so old-ish sophisticated type. the moment i go in, i think of love story mv, with people dress up and everything.

this palace has:
-3 floors
-a tennis/badminton/basketball court
-a swimming pool
-a small park
-3 balconies (the scenes from there like the love story mv, if it was maintain properly, it would be better)
-4 different stairs. (1. from the first floor- which is the place the maid cook and eat for themselves and carpark, to the second floor- the KIDS' living room and study room. 2. from the second floor to the second and a half floor- the ADULTS' living room and dining room and kitchen. 3. to the third floor- bedrooms. 5 bedrooms. BIG bedrooms. 4. to the underground room- place where the maids sleep, and WINE CELLAR!!)
-a very traditional WINE CELLAR!! like the movies, only with more spiderwebs >.<
-5 different designed toilet. one is all pink, very girlish. another is traditional, made of wood. this toilet like hse oni u know. TOILET also like hse! others duno, din see.
-7 40' PLASMA TV!
-2 maids (thats quite little for a place like this, no wonder outside not so nice la)

cant remember got what d. big until i CANT remember!! we took 1 hour and a half to look through her whole hse!! her hse will really be breathe taking if it had better maintainance for the outside. without that i also speechless d. since im speechless, i'll show u guys pics. sry so little pics, they all belum send me. lazy to wait d.

the front gate view. the number very ... lo >.<

this is the chandeliar in the KIDs' living room!! imagine the one in the ADULTS'!! *pengsan* we didn't take cos her grandma there.

the WINE CELLAR!! feel like im in a museum.

lisa's pic not nice. i need tina's!! but itu orang tak on9 =.=

2009-05-21T18:13:00.002+10:00

i wish i wasnt so

useless.

anyway here are more poems by me that i wrote last week.

Memories
The sight so familiar, our sweet memories,
Playing right before my eyes, my fellow buddies.
I can see it, it's so near.
But when I grasp for it, it dissappears.

I want to scream.
Blood rushing through my bloodstream.
I want to cry.
Streams of tears that can never dry.

But mostly I want to laugh,
Because I have to be tough.
I'll be strong, my fellow buddies,
Because I have our memories, sweet memories.

Don't ever look back,
Or your heart will crack.
Don't ever worry of moving on,
As you'll never know what's waiting upon.

As long as you have our memories,
It'll last forever long.

Happy ending
People hear laughter,
I hear cries.
People see happiness,
I see sadness.

Am I a sadist??
Well, maybe.
Am I a realist??
Hell, you bet I'll be!

But here's the truth, mate!
There ain't no happy endings.
Haven't you heard?
In every moment of happiness, there's ten moments of sadness.

Once the happiness is over,
The sorrows will take over.
So don't keep your hopes up,
As your time's up!

2009-05-19T18:43:00.003+10:00

My first poem:

Goodbye
I look into the mirror,
But all I see is horror.
Those eyes are as cold as ice.
And if I want to be precise,
It's dead on the outside,
But scared on the inside.

I stand outside,
Trying not to hide,
From the truth that I know so well,
Which will make my heart swell.
But before that, one last time,
For me to go back to the past time.

I see the big park,
It lingers in the dark.
The green trees tall and firm, like bodyguards,
Protecting the earth from storms afterwards.
It's amazing and awesome,
That this scene meant home sweet home.

I hear its bell.
I smell its smell.
Its puppy eyes staring at me.
Pleading me to agree.
But how can I say no,
With its chocolate brown eyes wanting to know.

As I walk the neighbourhood,
Trying to find the mood,
I bump into friends,
Chatting along as the friendship expands.
As time flies by,
It's time to say goodbye...

Finally I open my eyes.
The sight before me makes me cry.
Goodbye my pet.
Goodbye my friends.
Goodbye my home
And goodbye my life!

2009-05-16T12:39:00.004+10:00

MUAHAHA!!!
i've FINALLY DEFEATED THE COLD!!!!

*sings: im the champion!! u're the loser!!*
*looks around* *people staring*
*paiseh and fades into the crowd*

but i seriously found a way!!

WAYS TO DEFEAT THE COLD!:

- top: wear 5 layers. singlet, 3/4 sleeve shirt, baggy tshirt, 1/2 sleeve wool shirt that covers the neck, wool jacket.
-bottom: wear 2 layer. thick and thin long pants
-socks: wear 3 layer, normal white socks, black knee high socks, another normal socks outside.
-neck: besides the wool shirt's neck thingy, a scarf.
-hand: thick wool gloves

muahahaha.. finally i feel WARM!! finally at midnight, didn't wake up cos of the coldness!! but i look damn huge but who cares. as long as im warm, im in heaven xD

2009-05-14T18:48:00.007+10:00

Last Saturday was Aisha's 17th birthday! Yeah i know! 17!!! But still Im not the youngest >.<

Before i start, i'll introduce the present! so now im with the 'new asians group' because besides Tina, everyone else have been in this school the longest 3 terms, the newest is 1 term plus nia. I know you guys sure say 'why dont want be with angmoulang?' i tried! i was with angmoulangs for the first 3 weeks, but cant chat along that well, so change group lo >.<

the group is getting bigger, first time i came, i saw them, but there was only 3 people. First was Tina and Aisha, then came Theresa, then Aiky (she always ponteng school 1 =.=). This year came me, Chloe, Lisa and Joanne. =D Big right?? but still not as big as my msia group =D there i think got at least 13 ppl o.O look at the sunway lagoon group photo know d la xD

Okok, back to the birthday. Went to city to take sticker photo and karaoke. When i met them, i was ... I was so freaking odd!! Everyone was wearing so autumn-winter-ish clothes. me wear t-shirt and jeans with a jacket tied at my waist =.= damn casual. it wasnt cold that day, so wear like that lo. im such a summer girl xD

During sticker photo, i was also the odd 1 =.= they all do diff poses, but all LALA 1 =.= anyway i was like *look left and right* thinking 'shyt! what am i going to pose?!! i duno how to pose, worse of all is im NOT lala!! then before i knew it *chi-cak* =.= thank god no need take much, if not can die d. because there's like 8 of us, so we take in smaller groups, 4 each i think.

Den after that karaoke!!

I thought karaoke was boring!! BUT now i know its super fun lo. addicted liao xD theresa was like shouting her lungs out singing 'because of you' and it was quite good. not VERY GOOD but compared to normal ppl shouting to that song, counted not bad d xD

And here's PICTURES!! enjoy =D

ps: there's a group photo but lisa belum send to me, so wait la xD

Me, Lisa, Lela(not our school), Theresa and the bottom is bday girl, Aisha!

this pic was taken one day, out of boredom on the train and Tina started camwhoring.
btw, Tina is the girl i always take the train wif.
She's from China, 东北. I think she's kinda counted my close friend o.O

aiya dun worry la u guys, u all still more important xD

Bottom ones are from luna park, the day i had so much fun and got puked on.
duno happy or sad pun that day =.=
Tina, me, Lisa, the new zealander =D
ps: not my jacket! xP

2009-05-11T20:09:00.002+10:00

today, year 10's got to miss the first lesson!! cos we're going to hear a blind person singing.

she was blind since 2 years old cos of some eye cancer. they actually had to cut off her eyes. *ouch* anyway she said she could change her eye color, like really dig out the current eye, choose another 1, put it back in. o.O

then this tv channel, channel 9 was there to record it. it was suppose to suprise her, like credit her for her talent or something. but seriously her singing damn freaking good!! my first concert! not really la, but first time hear pro singing live!! her voice damn strong and she played the guitar. so juz her voice and guitar. damn jealous lo.

after singing the second song, this tv guy came onto the stage and like suprise by saying: hey crystal! we're from channel 9 and we're doing this tv program on u!! blablabla.. den she had this labrodor. the dog SOOOO CUTE!! she tot that tv guy was going to hurt her owner, so she straight away stand up and started barking!! fierce lo o.O awww.. its protecting its owner, how sweet =D *missing cutie* when her owner sing, she sleeps. but the moment her owner stop singing, she becomes very alert and starts looking around.. so touched la.. the dog treat her owner so good..

anyway those camera ppl damn fake lo!! end of the third song, he did the same thing again, walk up the stage, said the same thing. den the camera not recording d, he said: 'damn this tv business!! everything has to be done the second time!!' LOLOLOLOLOL!!!

den the whole thing finish, they ask us to laugh for 10 secs =.= and clap for 2 mins =.=
FAKE!!!

but i love her song!! hehe.. youtube her.. i oni noe her names crystal.. i think.. o.O

HAH!

2009-05-11T19:20:00.004+10:00

before i start this post, im giving you guys a warning first.
this post contains very high level of vulgarity, meaning swearings. so if u guys had always think im a good girl, pls dont read this. =D

i would like to dedicate this post to my MOST 'favourite' person in the whole universe. i really really pray hard to God that u actually read this!!
oh wait.
i forgot! you're too old to know anything about blog!
and oh yeah!!
sorry!! i forgot that you're so stupid that you cant actually read!!
aww. i feel so sorry for you.
hope you'll die soon and go to hell to solve your suffering!! =D

so here's what happened.

i was using XXX's skype and im so lucky that the person i've been waiting for so long CALLED me! (not me la but he thought im XXX). i gave him so many chances to get lost but noooo.

he called, i rejected. call, reject. for like 8 times i think. in the end, my patience ran out. i answered the next call, but i didn't say anything, cos no1. i wanted to know whether it's really HIM. no2. i wanted to give him the last chance to get lost and save him from nightmares. after comfirming its him, i ended the call.

BUT i never knew he was so smart to read my mind! he called again. HAH! your times up fucker! i answer and said: 'fuck you mother fucker!'. before he can even do anything, i ended the call. then he start writing in skype chat.

HIM. ME.
(fyi, dc its him and dd is suppose to be XXX)
ps: this is the EXACT conversation, i didnt upload the pic of it cos im too lazy)

dd said bad words??
can u juz freaking fuck off
u want to have fun, go find a fucking cheap slut
y r u saying this bad word 2 me?
dd knows it is dc calling?
of course i know who the fuck is calling
n fyi its not dd
dd sounded like u r angry at h?
d devil went into u oredi?
why the heck will i sound angry to my own HUSBAND
u are the devil
freaking off?/ what word is that?
christian
yeah rite
as if a true christian will be unfaithful
u christian use freaking fuck off?
dd is with d DEVIL now?
im so sorry that u're actually so stupid to not know how to read
if u scroll up, u can see that i wrote im not dd
FUCK YOU
dd IS NOT LIKE THIS ...DD IS AFFECTED BY D DEVIL?? TOT U WERE TALKING WITH H ..

he starts talking some bullshit bout his flight ==
CANT U FUCKING READ
IM NOT DD
FOR GODS SAKE
THEN WHO R U?? THIS IS TAKUSAN ON SKYPE
byebye
PLS COMFIRM

HAH!! i LOVE the ending!!! slam the door right in his PUSSYFACE!!

HAH!! FUCK THIS SON OF A BITCH!!!
*censored pic of me wif middle finger*

ps: i told some of u bout this person before, but maybe u forgot or what.
pps: im not gonna reveal who's the guy and who's acc i was using.
ppps: i actually took the pic wif me pointing middle finger but i scared scare u guys away so i din put.

pppps: MOTHER FUCKING SON OF A BITCH, I HOPE U READ THIS AND COME FIND ME!! I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR A LONG TIME TO KILL U MYSELF!!! or maybe not, i dont want to see ur pussyface and dickhead.. im far too good to even have any communication with u. u shd be happy that i actually wasted my time to swear at u!!

2009-05-09T10:56:00.001+10:00

i have

FINALLY

decided to keep my hair

*ta-da*

LONG!

wishes

2009-05-08T19:33:00.002+10:00

i want and wish:

- my knee to get better like NOW!!
i fell on wed and both my knee got big wounds, want to know how big?? can ask chiasing or weitar. then it was starting to harden, BUT i strain it today, so it bled again. which means the whole painful hardening process will begin ALL OVER AGAIN!! last night whole night cant sleep cause of that. now got to go through again.... can someone just kill me?

- winter shoes!!!
u noe the fluffy type of shoe u wear at home?? like bunny shoes or something.. wear socks will never NEVER warm my feet. then now many thanks to my wound, i need to wear shorts =.= freaking freezing!

- a job
who doesnt want money? and i want my OWN apartment!!

- holiday
not even gonna elaborate this.

F-U-T-U-R-E!

2009-05-05T20:03:00.002+10:00

the past's the past. time to move on~ (easily said than done >.<)
the future (end of this year).. hmmm..

- have a job!!
- have my own apartment! (not mine la, my parents)
- balik malaysia!
- more friends in aus..?
- stop cracking my knuckles!! LOL!
- get contacts...?
- ace my exams!!!
- feel life's a better place.....??
- get someone to lean on.........???? i wish!
- slim down?? yeah right, like im willing to go on a diet!!
- find a skill/ talent! i notice im good at nothing. X voice, X musical skills, X creativity, X flexibility, X brain (i found out my brain oni works if it had read/ memorise stuff. if its like IQ or something........)

- be outgoing and not be shy!!! i hate being shy. u become so unnotice =.=

- think of ways to treat mom better!!!! i dun even wanna talk bout this.

so those are what i expect for the future. in my dreams!!
POSITIVE!! think positive!!
okok.. so fingers cross and pray hard..

emotions

2009-05-05T19:53:00.002+10:00

seriously why suddenly i so semangat nak blog punya?? O.O (damn long bo use 'semangat' d, now use like very shuang LOL!!)

anyway..

i juz notice everyone's being so emo-ish lately. is this an emo year or something?? does the year of the ox mean emo??

hope not.

cos i cant wait to get back to malaysia in december and i dont want all my kawan kawan emo =D i noe im very infectious and can easily effect u all. (perasan xD) eh, but dun copycat la. emo now is my copyright!!

ALWAYS SMILE!!

HAPPY GO LUCKY!!

2009-05-03T13:03:00.011+10:00

weee.. pictures~

but before that i wanna say something:

SIAUTHUNG & KAIXIAN: i miss washing toilet wif u guys!! xD

SIAUTHUNG & MEIYEN & someone else o.O: i miss sitting in the boot and eating KFC wif u all!! xP

nah.. the sweet memories... =D

*ps: ignore my ugly pics!! its the memories that u're looking, not the ugliness >.<

LOL!! py's head block st head! hahahaha!

pei yun and siau thung. cacat la u two xD

LOLOLOL! look at the hand behind me.

counseling dinner. form 2.

some counseling lawatan i think..

i see bra~ xD

LOL!! me and py, my ling =D

ice-skating~ damn long no go d T.T

SPYKER~! everyone change d o.O

ini py ar.. makan hamburger pun ada skill 1..

the artistic and most delicious ice cream! oni 1 ringgit~ xD

duno wat they doing in my room.

wait!

i see banana! =D

2009-05-03T11:56:00.005+10:00

Yoyoyo. im back~
LOL! why suddenly im blogging? o.O
anywaaay,
should i:

keep my hair loooong?

OR

maintain my hair short?

come on.. answers ppl ANSWERS!! =P

the movie dream

2009-05-03T00:26:00.002+10:00

noe wat happen to me on thursday night?? i had a dream, but it was my first dream with a beginning and ending and all the suspence and everything.. like a movie.. so here goes:

*the brackets are things im thinking or saying real life.. not in the dream.. xD

I was the only girl in a boys' basketball team and we're like the best team in the state or something. (i noe its perasan la, but its juz a dream) den we were like playing the final. n we were losing by 1-2points. den i shoot, it didnt masuk. but duno how the opponent took another 2 balls from duno where. den aso duno how i got 1 of them, shoot again, didnt masuk. den again duno how i got the last ball, this 1 very dramatic lo.. the movement of my whole body and the ball flying to the board was slow motion.. den before seeing it got masuk anot.. suddenly blackout!

den duno how many days or weeks or months or years later, i was in a crowded place. i saw an old lady in the middle of the crowd. duno why i took her to the toilet, duno how i noe she want go toilet aso. den when i came out someone said why did she came out from the freezer?. i juz ignored that.

den i was in a theme park, something like sunway lagoon. i was going through a maze, and some clown will come chasing after me. and im actually scared of clowns. (when i was small, im scared of them. now i juz hate them. ugly looking monsters.) den suddenly a lil girl came n rescue me out. she's like 2-3 years younger. den she asked me: 'arent u that girl in the boys' bsb team?' i say yes. she said: 'COOL!! so did u won the final?!' that aso i say yes (but i dun get it, i din see the last shot got go in anot aso) den somehow she found a boyfriend, bout her age and although im suppose to be the popular player, his love for that girl was too strong to ask me things like she did.

So i jalan the theme park myself. den suddenly i found a boyfriend aso. (damn zha dou lo!! duno how i find pun) so yeah lo.. sit rides together watsoever..

den 1 day, he was playing bsb wif my bsb team members. he was one of their frens, but i didnt noe and he doesnt noe who i am. den i wanted to go see him play. when i reach, but still cant see who he's playing wif yet (no specs ma. LOL! dream aso short-sighted.. wth). i overheard the guys, meaning my bsb team member la.

they asked my 'boyfriend': 'so u got gf now rite? who is it?'
my 'boyfriend' said my name (in the dream aso i din hear my name or any name, but it juz seem to be me, so wateva)
team members look shock and said: 'she's dead. she died the day we won the finals!'

den after hearing those, suddenly i remember everything. the old lady was actually a ghost and the toilet was actually a freezer or something to put dead bodies. so i was like putting or bringing her body there! no wonder someone said 'why did she came out from the freezer?' (dun ask me how that person see me if im a ghost, i aso duno) den the lil girl who saved me and her bf was aso ghosts, thats why i saw them. but duno how my boyfriend could see me, but no one else did. so he was like sitting rides and everything on his own to a normal person's view!

den the memory of the finals came into my mind, the last shot did got in at the last second, which made us win. but right after the shot went in, the opponent did something and i died on the spot!! (choi!)

the last scene of my dream was that i saw some ppl putting my body in that freezer and my head came off and roll on the floor till it was facing 'me' or the camera or wateva..

CREEPY RITE????! creepy yet interesting!! it really seem like a movie!! i wanna make it into a movie.. maybe it'll be the best movie of the year!! LOL!!

gonna be a director!! i wish.. GOOD NITE~

the past~

2009-05-02T21:04:00.012+10:00

the past was so wonderful.. it seems like heaven now..

wats wrong wif me?? everyone's moving on but im not.. my body is moving on, but my heart and soul is in the past.. so im dedicating this post to the past =D

before that, thousand apologies for not blogging, and a million appreciation for still thinking and missing me.. yvonne, i read ur blog =D so yeah, lets start wif all my buddies wif no specific order =D

CHIASING:

- i miss ur crazy-ness.

- i miss going to the padang behind ur hse wif u.

- i miss overnighting at ur hse.

- i miss u feeding me when im at ur hse especially when i overnight xD

- i miss going to ur hse super early.

- i miss playing badminton wif u (although it wasnt often)

- i miss going swimming wif u.

- i miss somersalting in the water or diving wif u.

- i miss going on vacations wif u (sunway hotel and port dickson)

- i miss ice skating wif u.

- i miss our long phone calls.

- i miss our midnight talks on the balcony when i overnight ur hse.

- i miss trashing ur hse.

- i miss u laughing at my maple or computer skills.

- i miss going pasar malam wif u.

- i miss going out wif u.

- i miss watching ghost movies wif u. (i duno we go watch horror for wat, throughout the whole show keep closing eyes, ears, hugging each other)

- i miss u teaching me guitar (although it was a total waste of time >.<)

- i miss bitching or drooling over celebrities wif u.

- i miss being hyper wif u.

- i miss our midnight movies.

- i miss our first time playing archery.

- i miss our quite-long-besties friendship. =D

KAIXIAN:

- i miss my er jie and xianyu. =D

- i miss calling u 很有艺术感的人. xP

- i miss ur artistic drawings. xD

- i miss u helping me do my seni.

- i miss sharing the chair wif u in form 2.

- i miss playing futsal wif u. (cicak and koala xD)

- i miss playing netball wif u.

- i miss playing basketball wif u (shoot wif netball style and when u block me or i

block, we say 'i love you')

- i miss playing badminton wif u.

- i miss going ur hse n stand on ur bicycle.

- i miss our tattoo.

- i miss my form 2 penolong ketua kelas.

- i miss our secret codes or wateva u call it (thung and yvonne very *ah-hem*)

- i miss copying ur homework.

- i miss ur artistic presents.

- i miss kawad-ing wif u.

- i miss going out of class wif u. (form 2 and form 4)

- i miss going A&W wif u after badminton.

- i miss going kasturi wif u.

- i miss playing archery wif u.

- i miss playing fireworks wif u.

SIAUTHUNG:

- i miss ur yeng-ness.

- i miss ur lame jokes and funny jokes too.

- i miss playing futsal and netball wif u.

- i miss playing basketball wif u.

- i miss playing badminton wif u.

- i miss u taking me on rides on the bicycle. (damn shuang lo)

- i miss sending u home wif my bicycle (although i cycle and u run xD)

- i miss learning hip hop wif u.

- i miss ur haircut (LOL!)

- i miss the ham-bur-ger.

- i miss my lao gong.

- i miss the 'ma tong' or sotong.

- i miss kena potong rambut by pn teo wif u.

- i miss bumping into u when i keluar kelas.

- i miss sharing chair wif u in form 2.

- i miss going basketball training wif u.

- i miss going A&W wif u after badminton.

- i miss playing archery wif u.

- i miss playing fireworks wif u. (I can still remember the time in form 2, lantern festival, u tot the fireworks will explode that time n u ran n u fell! oni to found out its the sparkling type. HAHA xD)

YVONNE:

- i miss my da jie.

- i miss my basketball couch.

- i miss calling u 'chao you yu'

- i miss jogging wif u.

- i miss playing basketball wif u (u were always late in the morning >.<)

- i miss playing badminton wif u.

- i miss kawad-ing wif u.

- i miss going tuitions and walking to tuition wif u.

- i miss playing archery wif u.

- i miss going cycling together.

- i miss finding clothes for hari kebangsaan wif u.

- i miss going basketball training wif u.

- i miss ham-bur-ger.

- i miss going to the library to 'study' wif u. xD

- i miss going camp wif u.

- i miss our tattoo.

PHUIYEE:

- i miss my ling.

- i miss my jie (forgot which jie d, i think its 'san jie' o.O)

- i miss ur hyper-ness.

- i miss playing fireworks wif u.

- i miss the parties at ur hse.

- i miss jogging wif u.

- i miss playing badminton and basketball wif u.

- i miss going badminton training wif u.
- i miss training stamina wif u before LBT.
- i miss kawad-ing wif u.

- i miss being PRS wif u.

- i miss never being in the same class wif u but still friendship so good. (How ar?)

so yeah.. so far i write 5 first..

and here comes the further past!!

if u look carefully to this 3 pics, u can see that i actually had DIMPLES!!! T.T my dimples.. mana u pergi le..

i look so cute up there la..

look at me!!

like walking blindly.. cant remember wat was i doing.. xD

these photos are at least 4-5 years ago.. i cant believe i actually had dimples before!! noooo.. T.T thats why i say the past is like heaven!

and these are quite recent, but it seems so long ago.. these are pics the day before christmas..

thanks to ST, my post is perfect :P

*a-hem* this thung ar.. syok sendri!!

yes la.. ty very muchie la..

talking bout the past.. friday, i sit train balik rumah, den tina duno emo wat or dun wan talk to me or wateva la.. so i look out the window, den we pass by a private boys' skul.. n guess wat?! they were marching n doing formations!! i see this, straight away flashbacks of pbsm came out.. there was this weird and strong feeling, it was like i wanted to laugh+cry+scream.. omg.. i really really miss my life >.<

o.O long post.. anyway im outta here.. cheers xD

update lo

2009-04-30T22:41:00.002+10:00

nah a post.. xD

okay la, here's my post la.. my two weeks hols gone le.. and i didnt finish my assignments!!! anyway so here's wat i done..
- went to the dee why beach (I LOVE THE BEACH!!!)
- went to esther show (something like sunway lagoon) and it was freaking raining =.=
- play badminton n basketball a bit (my skills all gone le T.T)

thats bout it.. sorry la no mood to blog now.. cos i duno wat to blog bout my boring n stupid life.. n aso main thing is i keep fighting wif my mom!! i dun get it.. i wanna treat her nice, but she always does things that really pisses me off!! ish.. she NEVER UNDERSTAND ME OR EVEN LISTEN TO ME!! *cries from frustration*

and life's so unfair.. things i want, i need to fight for it.. but for others, they dun even search, yet they get it so easily.. sit at home also can get =.=

*im bukan poser la.. im still the same LIM JIN ZHI, only more emo and fatter oni =.=
*CHIASING!!! U CARI ME FOR WAT?? i on, u dun reply.. i off oni u reply.. apa la lu..

2009-04-30T16:23:00.002+10:00

Hey yooou!
Your blog too dead la i cant stand it. :P
Faster online la.
Needa tell you something and the suspense is killing me argh!
I actually came in to help you link people but i forgot the names D:
Thats why i need you online, NOW.
(not really now la but you get my point d:)

TATA!

pictures~ =D

2009-04-08T20:38:00.006+10:00

haha. another happy post =D yay!

anyway say things bout today first. ITS MY HOLS LE!!! FINALLY!! =D and i jigged/wagged 4th period today. hahaha. meaning ponteng the last lesson of skul!

but le.. lost my 4 GIG USB!! =.= but anyway nothing important in there and it was free.. so trying to forget bout it.. continue wif the happy stuff before i start blowing smoke out of my body..

last friday after skul, went to the city wif my frens. we watched 'Uninvited'! it wasnt scary, juz maybe like 3 scenes which was scary. hahaha. but those scary parts i used my jacket to cover my eyes, so yeah.. i didn't jump out of my seat like LISA!! xD her reaction was really classic!

den we took sticker photos, u noe those 'da tou tie' and here are them =D

top left is Lisa from new zealand, center ME, top right is Tina from china, bottom left is Aisha from china, bottom right is Theresa from korea. =D

this finish, we balik. it was like 8pm and it was freezing cold! we were the oni teenagers wearing skul uniform in the city.. kinda weird.. oh yeah! if u noe notice, we actually took those photos wif SCHOOL UNIFORM! theresa's idea, so dun look at me..

den in the train, we started talking like all these codes, like 12629? xD icucicu.. then lisa told us to spell icup out loud.. so all of us was like i-c-u-p.. after like 5mins oni we knew and we said it OUT LOUD!! damn paiseh.. but le, there's always a sesated 1.. tina actually asked very loudly: 'WAT'S P?!' LOLOLOLOLOL!!!! damn funny la..

end of that friday..

tuesday (7/4/09)

me and tina went to watch 'knowing' cos it's cheaper on tuesdays.. it was actually SCARY!!! wif all those whispering sound effects and misty background.. omg..

den all the way back to 1 month plus ago.. on swimming carnival day, i ponteng that.. went to city wif chloe.. and took some sticker photos too. p/s: chloe paid for everything =X

p/p/s: chloe's a bit weird though >.<

u guys shd noe which is me n chloe rite?? i noe u duno who's chloe, but obviously u guys noe me rite?? right???! *pls say yes* xD

this one looks too white.. anyway it was suppose to be a bathtub and we're in it.. xD

updates =D

2009-04-01T20:00:00.002+11:00

okay no more emo posts =D this is gonna be a okay/ happy 1 =D its been so long since i have a happy post >.<

let's see.. i went to a friend's 15th birthday party on 21/3/09, but i was damn sesated.. but it wasn't that bad la.. yeah, i noe.. it was a bit boring for me cos i juz sat or stand there but i still talked a bit.. the ending was nice though cos most ppl was gone, so i finally dared to dance xD

den on 24/3/09, year 10s got an excursion to the beach, meaning like go lawatan la.. in the bus, we were quite noisy.. we were playing some quite childish hand games, but it was addictive! xD next time play wif u guys, especially all those sakai ppl *cough* who hor? xD

the beaches was so nice!! we went to Collaroy beach and Long Reef Head and Dee Why beach.. but too bad, we weren't allowed in the water cos it was suppose to be a research! T.T but still we curi curi go la.. omg.. the water was so cooling! the sand was so smooth.. i was smart enough to wear slippers so i could walk bare footed! 95% of students wore shoe.. duno how they can tahan NOT to touch the sand and walk pun.. the waves was aso way bigger than msia's.. the first thing i was thinking when i got down the bus was: 'whoa, the waves are BIG!'

but le.. it was freaking hot.. no shade at all.. even my leg, got the slipper mark == and it was aso so windy, my hair ar... become bush d.. but anyway we had a fun time.. thinking of going there again wif frens before winter comes.. hopefully that'll happen la..

U GUYS COME LA!!!!! go wif u all more fun la.. im still not close to them la.. pls la COME!!!!!!! i miss u guys u noe.. i keep looking back at the photos.. i miss the old days.. i miss acting like a sakai! i miss saying msian slang! (today i said botak instead of bald ==) i miss my jies and lao gong and 'family'..

remind me pls ==

2009-03-22T01:01:00.002+11:00

note to self:

- never talk to my mom again.. if not i'll really kill her one day..

she juz dun get wat i mean.. its like she's on the light fm channel and im the hitz fm channel.. she juz cant understand wat im saying!!!!! ish.. from washing clothes, she can connect it with very very stupid n hurting things.. ==

GOD...........

2009-03-18T23:36:00.002+11:00

now i have prove that there is never god..

prove no.1: my life suck from the second i was borned till this very second..

prove no.2: failing my history and commerce

prove no.3: everytime i think there's hope, it turns out to be nothing.. not even a speck of dust!!! i thought i could work in a small cinema near my house as they were hiring teenagers.. so when i wanted to give my resume today, they STOPPED ACCEPTING!! wtf.. why cant they stop accepting tomoro or yesterday?! why TODAY?! WHY?!!! but wat was i thinking.. my wish/dreams/ hopes NEVER comes true.. so why did i actually get my hopes up.. why did i even think of it.. and the person i was supposed to give to is a guy called David Stones.. the person i hate the most in my entire life in the entire universe is DAVID!!! ppl wif the name david is mother-******, son of a *****.. i noe im being namist and swearing again.. but thats the fact.. the first david i knew was ************************* he claims he's christian, but christian dun do things like ruining ppl's life!! he was the very first person to ruined my destined to be ruined life!! he practically killed me.. there's 2 david in my skul now.. and nobody likes them.. although i duno them, but still if everybody thinks that, it IS the truth.. 'davids' are juz hate-able.. they're stupid.. even 'davids' in shows are stupid.. i saw 1 thats bout aliens, n this david thinks he was so smart n he was the first to die.. why jin zhi, why were u so stupid??!!! why did u even thinks there's such thing as 'HOPE' in your life..

if there really is a god, he must be bored for thousands of years and finally thought: 'i'll create my own personal human toy, this is getting so boring. i need entertainment!!' n thats the moment he create a person called Lim Jin Zhi.. Me = god's personal toy.. and so he decided to torture me as my life is shortened by every ticking second.. he makes my life hell, maybe he even have a secret leisure of seeing ppl get tortured.. cos he's job was to actually make everyone's life much better, so he wanted a change and that's where i come in..

if there really is god, i bet he's laughing his evil laugh till there'll be disasters tomoro.. so everyone better watch out.. ==

and when i juz got back from my fren's hse, i found that there was a quite big centipede on my bed == god seriously hates me.. he wants me to go to sleep and never wake up.. maybe because my life sucked too well, he's getting bored..

so my conclusion today is..
1. there's no such thing as god.
2. davids are never good news.

a million oppologies~ xD

2009-03-15T13:15:00.002+11:00

sorry sorry for all the F words.. i was SUPER SUPER pissed off, so yeah...

SORRY!!!

..........

2009-03-14T00:17:00.002+11:00

today was cross-country day.. sat the bus from skul to st. ives park.. the distance was 3km and its not like there's a road for u to walk/run.. its practically jungle trekking.. n it rained yesterday, so freaking muddy.. we walked 1 round n it was enough.. so we juz sat under the tree, playing cards, eating chips.. breakfast, lunch and dinner i ate chips, how healthy.... anyway it was damn fun.. we were laughing n shouting.. really really fun..

den bout 3pm, we sat the bus back to skul.. and cos it was still early, we decided go Luna Park.. its something like sunway lagoon, only not so big and extreme.. AND on every friday after 5pm its half price.. so meaning $25 for all rides.. muahaha.. we sat the roller coaster, 3 different type of turning 360 degree xD, n the 'big splash'.. damn fun!! i was thinking today is the most perfect day ever.. this park is open till 12AM!!! yeah, serious!! till MIDNIGHT!! but we went back at 10pm, was getting tired.. the whole day, screaming, laughing, shouting.. think getting sorethroat d.. omg.. so damn fun!! i wanna go again..

anyway cos we noe at night was going to be cold, so we brought jackets.. i borrowed from my fren la, cos hse too far.. we played 'big splash' last cos we noe we were so going to be wet.. we played without the jacket, so later we can take off our shirt and wear the jacket wif the spaghetti stripes we're wearing underneath the shirt.. when playing that, i accidentally hit Tina wif my elbow cos i wanted to splash water.. ouch!! and it was hard..

den change and sat the train back.. den after Lisa (my ex-neighbour) got down in Chatswood, 2 drunken guai po and 1 guai lou came in the train wif wine in their hands.. den 1 lady sat next to me, 1 sat in front.. so we were practically cornered.. and they started asking stupid questions like "how are u guys today?" "where u going?" i didn't noe to answer or not.. i duwan to answer but if i dun, im scared they'll hit us or puke on us.. Tina wasnt much of a help either, but i dun blame her.. if im her, i'll do the same thing.. den.........

before i knew it.. the FUCKING BITCH in front of us, PUKED ON US!!! yeah.. u heard me.. PUKED ON US!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCCCCK!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK THAT BITCH!!!! WAT WAS THEIR FUCKING PROBLEM!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY MUST IT BE US?!!!!! GOD FUCKING HATES ME MAN!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

and 2 drops went into my eye.. =.= FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!! but thank god, she puked in between us, so each of us kena the sleeve and a bit of the side of the jacket.. lucky not FACE!! den we juz walked to the other car (each train got i think bout 10 car, meaning different part) omg la!!!! ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!! when walking there, we took off our jacket because it was too disgusting!!! n we ended up wif oni our spaghetti stripes =.= the very thin type somemore.. it was like 10.30pm wif i think 19 degree celcius and we were wearing spaghetti stripes and kinda wet pants.. wonderful.. and these guys were looking at us like some............ i think my fren saw me so pissed, she tried to make a joke, saying "we have so many clothes in our hands: jacket and shirt, yet we're wearing juz spaghtti stripes, ppl sure say we're crazy" it kinda brighten me for like 10 secs only.. argh!!!!!!

FUCK THAT BITCH!!!!!!! and i met my mom in the train, she went for her church thingy.. when i told her she LAUGHED at me!! wat type of fucking mother is this?! u think getting puked on is FUNNY?!!!!! OMG!!!!! den i walked my fren back becos how can i let her wearing like that at 11pm wif the coldness, walking back alone in the dark street.. i was so freaking cold d, but my mom still wan to go to buy something in Coles, a supermarket that close at 12am =.= cant my mom see that im shivering?! cant my mom see that im not comfortable wearing that?! ish.. my mom never lets me wear sexy stuff and now she juz dun care when i need her to care!! urgh!!!

when i think it was the perfect day, it was ruined by two SUPER SUPER SUPER FAT ANG MO POU IN 2MINS!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*god hates me!!*

=D

2009-03-11T22:09:00.002+11:00

FINALLY!!!

finally i had a great time in aussie!! it's still not as great as msia 1 la.. but at least its a start..

today was my skul's open night and me and a few friends stayed back to help.. u juz practically show the primary students wats there in our skul.. anyway we were juz teaching some kids to play chinese thingies cos we were helping our chinese teacher.. and u guys noe that yoyo cina thing rite? well.. i learnt it 6 years ago and now i totally forgotten bout it.. 2 ang mou kids was actually so so so much better than us!! so memalukan man.. wanna find hole to hide d..

so we juz help here, help there and went back at 7pm.. and now its autumn, so its actually getting dark already.. n u noe wat?! the weather hates me.. monday n tuesday, i brought my jumper and wore knee-high socks but it was so freaking hot.. today i was thinking it'll be hot in the afternoon, so i wore ankle socks n no jumper but yet it was cold =.= god seriously hates me..

anyway i think i drank too much soft drink, lets say.. bout half a can..? or maybe it was too long since i drank soft drink.. i noe wat u guys are thinking: "oh, jin zhi din drink soft drink for so long, sure become thin" guess wat im fatter than ever, im officially 50kg == anyway i was so freaking hyper, i kept laughing.. n in public, i actually told my fren quite loudly, u take the escalator, i take the stairs, see who reach first.. so i was wearing my short skirt uniform n running up the stairs 2 at a time (dun worry, got wear pants inside) in the end we reached at the same time LOL! and we continued laughing.. and it was bout 7.3oPM!! n we were still in skul uniform laughing our heads out in the middle of the street and it was DARK! like 9pm msia.. everyone was looking at us, like we were on drugs.. but i seriously cant help myself.. i was so HIGH~ i think im still high now o.O

so we went to makan dinner lo.. here the shops close at 5pm, but we were thinking the food court in the shopping mall wont close that early.. so we so 'xin ku' find the entrance to go to the food court (cos they close all other entrance), but in the end it was closed, so we got to go to some kopitiam like dat.. haiz.. den at the kopitiam we continued our crazyness and we were the only ppl there.. but after the food came we quiet down..

after eating, we balik. so we went to the train station and used the toilet there and the first thing that greeted me after coming out was the big, fat guy staring at me saying: "do u noe wat those borders are?! we juz cleaned the toilet!!" i was the second to get scolded, first was chloe, last was tina.. even that made us laugh!! n we were laughing so loud again in the train.. all the adults think we must be on drugs or drunk.. even i think so!! it was 9PM AND IN SKUL UNIFORM, ACTING LIKE SOME MANIAC!! if i wasnt drunk or on drugs, i duno wat i am..

reached Hornsby n got down.. chloe got down 2 stations earlier.. me n tina same place, she turn left, i turned right..

OMG!!! im never going to come back after 8pm ever again!! i never knew the new street im living in was so freaking dark at night!! no lights at all and the corner of my street was a pub upstairs!!! when i was turning the corner, all these drunken men kept screaming and laughing at each other.. omg.. damn scary!

*hoping life will get better. fingers crossed*

Life..........

2009-03-10T16:49:00.002+11:00

will my life ever be the same?? will it ever be back to normal?? will i ever move on??

so many question i wanna ask and KNOW the answers. things i actually wanna noe but can never get the answers. yet things i wish in my whole life i would never knew and be able to live my innocent life, where everything is perfect. okay maybe not perfect, but at least more perfect than my world now.

i WANT!!:

- to play basketball with xian, thung, yvonne, py, and so many more.

- to play badminton with practically the same ppl above including chiasing this time.

- to learn tennis like wat i promised chiasing after pmr is over.

- to continue learning hip hop wif thung, lai mun, schew ee

- to learn guitar wif xian, py, cs.

- to play wif my baby, see her greet me everytime, smell her, touch her.

- to see the twins fight n scream everyday when im back from skul, to hear them calling jie jie.

- to feel once again that im HOME.

im juz not moving on and coping this whole situation as well as clarice i guess. i feel lost. i feel tired. can i turn back the clock to 3 years ago?? can i get things i actually want?? even last year feels like it was 10 years ago. everything is going so fast. i cant catch up. i cant think. i cant even catch my breath. can i actually go back 16 years ago and tell god (if theres really 1) never to create me???

Impossibilities~

2009-03-09T22:18:00.002+11:00

I'm starting to believe there's such thing as impossibilities. Everything in my life is impossible. I cant even catch up wif my life. I feel tired, i want a rest, i NEED a rest. Can i die and wake up a week later? i seriously feel tired. I'm sick n tired wif my life. It feels like a never ending thing. It's like u got a bunch of homework on monday, then before finishing your monday homework, u get more homework on tues and so on. You juz cant catch up.

Last year PMR, i studied hard. okay, fine, maybe not THAT hard, but you get it rite? anyway then i was thinking of at least a 3 months rest from everything and juz be a typical spoilt brat. but who knows, i end up in school, feeling lost and blur. And i only had 3 weeks of official holiday. Then there's the financial problem. Everyone thinks: 'OMG, I'm so jealous of u la jin zhi. You get to see hot guys, live in a ang mou lang country... blablabla...' never judge a book by its cover. i know it sounds and looks so nice. but HELLOO?! REALITY CHECK!! "NOTHING IS LIKE THE STORYBOOKS OR MOVIES" WAKE UP!!!

maybe what my mom said is right. im going to end up in tanjung rambutan. she says im showing signs of going crazy. i know i look normal and maybe feel normal. but i too think there's something in me that's not going quite right. physically i look normal, like im having a good time but mentally i dont know how far can i still go. im DRAGGING day by day. im so tired that i actually lost touch of weekday and weekend. EVERY and i mean EVERY weekend morning, i end jumping from my bed and thinking: 'shit! im late! im late! why didn't my alarm ring?!' after calming down or seeing my mother's shock face on the bed, only then i realise its a weekend and goes back to sleep. even EVERY FRIDAY, SATURDAY NIGHT i think: 'tomorrow got school, what do i have tomorrow? what do i need to bring or do?'

i think im really breaking down, im in desperate need of rest. can god just let me go?? just let me go la. im feeling tired. if god hates me so much, why cant u just kill me, i welcome you anytime anywhere. im very sorry if i offended anyone.

i want to be the spoilt brat just once in my life time. just ONCE! is it so hard?! why must i be the independant 1?! i dont really mean independant like cooking real meals or washing toilets and all those, i mean mentally i feel so grown up, like i knew too many things i shouldn't.

im sick of standing alone. im sick of carrying everything on MY back. i want something to lean on. i want a brother. at least if i have family problem or something, i can tell him and he'll actually understands and DO something about it. AT LEAST i have someone to lean on and not walk the whole journey on my own in the storm with everything on my back.

I need a rest.

*i know this is a very depressing post, but i feel depressed and i've been keeping this far too long. if you guys have nothing good to say pls dont say as this is no joking matter. thank you.

hmmm..

2009-03-09T20:00:00.002+11:00

let's see wats there to blog..

i feel like changing my name to JayZee.. wat u guys think.. pls tell me..

n my EXAM is on u ppl's HOLIDAY!!! wat the hell T.T someone kill me.. its next week n i haven touch my book yet.. n we got to memorize everything den go into class n write it all in an essay in 30 MINS!!! not 1 hour or 2 u noe but 30 MINS!! somemore need 2 PAGES!! n i duno a thing my stupid teacher is saying.. science, history, geography, commerce all die =.=

n my bao zou po juz told me, the internet is not 100% unlimited.. i cant dl things but i can use it to find information n all those T.T noooo my internet.....

muahaha.. year 10s' are getting free laptops by this term!! brand new FREE laptops.. but they say its gonna be sucky =.= got free can liao la.. who cares..

there's 1 more thing i wanted to say but i forgotten.. hmmm.. next time ba..

replies again

2009-03-04T23:22:00.001+11:00

i seriously duno why i cant post comment.. o.O

anyway

>lpy: haha.. cos u no skill ma.. without me u no skill le.. xD

>lao gong: yeng le.. got 4 walls n 1 ceiling, so unique xP

replies~

2009-02-27T20:12:00.002+11:00

i duno why but i cant post comments == so im using this way.

>yun: train as in chu-chu that train LOL!

>lao gong: dui bu qi, but im working overseas ma to yang jia. i sacrifice so much ar.

>mei yen: YO!!! heard that u really manage to win phui yee in lbt! grats! xD

>rayray: long time no see. lol.

erm.. i duno wat to blog la.. nothing interesting is happening.. except that i hate this place that im staying now.. mignight got cockroach come into the room, got spider under the table, den duno why got ants come in the afternoon, den dissapear at night == insect palace meh here ==

the first night here, my mom duno why midnight go on the table lamp, the moment she on, she screamed! cos got cockroach on the table.. omg.. i tot wat happen to her, i ask her, she tell me cockroach i was like........ somemore that time im having fever, n this house is actually very not sound prove, got wall, no wall, no difference 1.. duno got wake them up anot..

den another day, i was playing the laptop, den my mom duno why bend down, den again she screamed.. i tot got some monster or disgusting thing under the table, den she said, omg, got big spider.. == the spider aso not big, n its the usual type 1 somemore..

another thing i dun like bout this house is that NO PRIVACY!!! because the place is so NOT sound prove, 1 handphone ring, whole house hear.. even normal talking, outside can hear clearly.. i really hate going 'home' now.. ==

so yeah.. home sweet home ==

alert!! xD

2009-02-18T18:01:00.002+11:00

muahahahaha..

i found a room to stay d. but its not my fren's hse. the place is called Hornsby, a place bout 25mins from Chatswood if take train. it's $175/w, so not bad la. n im moving this sunday. so that means i need to take train to skul everyday le. T.T n there's A LOT of things to bring la T.T

last friday was Mufti day, meaning we get to wear casual clothes but we gotta donate at least $1. but because it was raining n cold. practically everyone wore thick jackets n jeans. oni some was wearing super short shorts n sleeveless. i regret wearing jeans la. cos my jeans juz suck up all the water on the ground, so the whole day my feet felt like 0'c, shivering wei.

den next monday is my skul swimming carnival, but becos i dun wanna wear swimsuit, so im not swimming, therefore im not going xD

ALERT!! pls be on msn on sunday evening or night if u wanna see my new room xD pls ar. cos my internet finishing le. the most 15mins on webcam ok?

HELP!!!!!

2009-02-10T17:48:00.002+11:00

finally updating my blog.. anyway i need HELP!!! I NEED LUCK ON SIDE!!! because:

my 'bao zhou po' is chasing us out! cos she wants to stay herself but actually she wants her fren to stay here.
i need to find a job soon so that we can rent an apartment n not ONE ROOM!
my bloody laptop (okay but not MY laptop, me n my mom's) is not functioning properly!! it's juz ONE MONTH N 13 DAYS!!! wat the hell..
cos my 'bao zhou po' wants us out by end of february, so i asked a fren whether she can rent 1 room in her hse to me n my mom first.. BUT she has to ask her grandma.. *pls say yes*

T.T damn dis place.. why cant i be rich?!! haiz.. first post after i came back to aus n it aint a good 1 ==

1/1/09 NEW YEAR!!! & 2/1/09

2009-01-20T18:45:00.002+11:00

new year.. let's see.. it means
-we're older than 1 year~
-end of a very good / very bad year~
-need to start all over again~
-juz a brand new year to let us conteng it wif our wonderful / tragic memories~

okay.. lets see how i start my new year.. at 12.00am WATCHING TV AT DAD HSE! sien i noe.. n aso the stupid curve put fireworks 5mins too early.. their timing seriously out wei.. it was very obvious its still 11.55PM 31/12/08!!!

anyway woke up feeling as usual on new year morning.. dad went out the whole day, so i was stuck at home watching tv.. but le.. cos it was a thursday which means pasar malam so i went to cs hse.. and overnighted there..

next day, went swimming wif cs frens: christopher (my 1 day bestie.. lol..), wai phun and daryl.. its kinda awkward cos le.. i din bring swimsuit so got to borrow cs 1.. n becos im fatter than cs, :/we were force to change our tops.. so i was wearing her HOT RED, FLOWER-ISH swimsuit top wif her dark blue swimsuit pants.. the colors totally crashed.. but in the end dun care la.. so swim swim swim.. bout 6pm came out, bath n eat dinner.. me n chris order fried rice, cs order fries, wai phun - salad, daryl - fish n chips.. when the fried rice came.. it was humongous!! we didn't expect M to be for 5 ppl to eat.. we tot it'll be the very 'kiam siap' type.. so le.. got to bloat ourselves up =.= thank god they forgotten bout cs fries, so she can help us eat xD

yea.. that's bout it.. at least i manage to write more than half the days i was here.. now really got to finish packing d.. see ya T.T

30/12/08 & 31/12/08

2009-01-19T23:47:00.003+11:00

went to summit watch 'Australia' wif kx, yee von, yvonne, py, py, wq.. it was actually quite funny.. i like the part nicole kidman was looking at the kangaroos.. 'oh! they're so beautiful!!' den BANG!!! someone shoots them.. hahaha.. den after that lepak lepak..

that night went to jia qian to overnight with phui yee.. slept in the living room again =D played wif her dogs den jq n py started playing the guitar.. make me feel so untalented like that =.= den watch music videos.. wah.. leehom big perfect face look at me till i sleep.. xD slept at 5 or 6 something.. py the earliest to sleep.. lol..

den woke up 11am something next day.. den we last minute went to summit watch show.. there was still time so we went to eat steamboat.. lol.. none of us ate steamboat ourselves before.. so we fighting which food to put in first.. den makan finish d, juz in time to masuk cinema =) we watch bedtime stories.. damn boring.. really bedtime stories la wei.. nearly slept.. finish d.. den we aso balik d..

i noe its very summarized but i need to go pack liao.. haiz..

28/12/08

2009-01-19T23:47:00.002+11:00

was at cs hse.. forgot do wat d.. yea.. that's it.. o.O
dis is super short O.O

27/12/08

2009-01-19T23:35:00.002+11:00

went sunway lagoon wif kx, jq, py, py xD
played archery wif kx oni.. cos the other 3 ppl le dun wan.. den watched 2 shows.. yes man and the chihuahua 1.. yes man damn funny wei.. i LOVE the part he said reeeeeeeddd~ buuuuuuuuulllll~ LOL!! must watch..

so i think that's bout it.. NEXT!!

25/12/08

2009-01-19T23:33:00.002+11:00

CHRISTMAS DAY!!!!!!!

did nothing lo.. juz stayed at dad's hse and watch tv the whooooooooooo~ooooooo~le day.. sien rite.. so nothing to post d.. buai buai~

24/12/08

2009-01-19T14:01:00.003+11:00

the day before christmas is the day 4 very unexperienced bakers bake cookies =D they are yvonne chai, siau thung, kai xian and the magnificient ME!! xD

so they came to my hse n lepak lepak lepak.. den 1 hour later oni we start baking.. everything went okay, except the fact that smoke actually came out from the mixer, n that the wonderful yvonne chai took a big cup for the sugar which was according to the instructions was to put ONE FULL CUP.. so anyway put in dis n dat, mix dis n dat.. den finally the dough is done.. so me n st do 1 tray, yvonne n kx do 1 tray.. u all sure say of cos yvonne that group nicer rite cos there's the artistic LEE KAI XIAN!! but le hor.. unless u like super small cookies which is oni 1 quarter of ur mouth size, looks nice and has additional 'terbakar' taste den u'll like theirs =DDDD HAHAHAHA!! u should see their cookies.. actually i got pics but lazy upload lo xD not like mine n st.. juz-nice-mouth-size-and-look-not-bad-and-dun-have-additional-taste-cookies.. hor lao gong.. *shivers* o.O thank god smoke came out from the over if not their cookies will become dust d.. yea.. u heard me.. SMOKE came out FROM the oven..

not oni that.. the cookies was DAMN FREAKING SWEET.. eat d can straight away get diabetic.. serious.. thx to who hor?? who ar?? i forgot d.. *scrolls up* *looking at the name 'YVONNE CHAI YEW WEN'* xD

so end of today.. NEXT!! xD

20/12/08 Saturday n 21/12/08 Sunday n 22/12/08

2009-01-15T20:25:00.003+11:00

aiyoooo.. i lazy to write everyday d la..

weekend in dad's hse.. watch tv whole day lo.. if not went to 1u lo... that's it..

lol.. now dis post so short =.=

22/12/08 monday
forgot wat happen aso.. think in grandma hse.. i forgot when dis happen la.. juz going to write it.. one evening me n yvonne wan go jogging.. but le.. i go her hse, her mom say she go out d.. i go mpsj find her, cant find.. den i went to yishuen to borrow phone.. thank god, me n yvonne had the same thinking.. cos yvonne cant find me in my hse, so she wanted to go yishuen's hse to borrow phone aso.. hahaha..

okay 3 days down.. another 10 more days for this month =.=

18/12/08 Thursday n 19/12/08 friday

2009-01-15T17:50:00.004+11:00

bout 11am something, my grandparents, uncle, aunty, the twins n me was on the way to melaka.. but on the way, my grandpa keep wanting my uncle to stop at the petrol station or wateva to buy water la, buy this n that la, eat lunch la.. so in the end bout 3pm oni reach melaka.. we stayed at the a'famosa's bungalow 1..

reach there rest for a while n off i go swimming again xD FYI each bungalow got its own swimming pool =D swimming half way i saw this black thingy next to the pool, at first i tot it was a dead frog.. but actually it was a dead bat.. yea.. a DEAD BAT.. shouted for my grandpa to come out n took the bat away, den continue swimming.. this time all my cousins came out to swim liao, they are leon, kelvin, aaron n andrea(the twins), including my uncle n grandpa.. me the oni girl.. ever since small, if im going out wif my cousins, im always the oni girl.. usually its leon n kelvin(same age as me), ah fai(2years younger) n my uncle(the twins father).. andrea wasn't counted cos she juz sat at the edge of the swimming pool, kick water for awhile n went back in cos she scared of water.. *continueing* aaron was SOOOOOOO CUTE LA.. cos he's aso kinda scared of water, so he kept clinging onto me.. i nonid to hold him 1, he'll hug me super tight..

i ask him: u wan daddy?
he'll push his father away n say DUN WAN!
i ask: u wan leon kor kor?
he say: DUN WAN!
i ask: u wan kelvin kor kor?
he say: DUN WAN!

his love for me is juz too strong xD oh yea.. forgot to say.. the first time i saw them since australia, was last week's thurs morning, andrea was like so shy, hiding behind the mom.. den my uncle juz carried aaron out from the car.. he was so excited to see me.. he stretch his arms to the fullest, keep calling: JIE JIE! JIE JIE! den when his dad finally put him down, he ran to me, jump n hug me.. SOOOOOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEEEEEEE LA!!!!! kinda my happiest time of my life..

*going back* so i teach aaron to swim a bit lo.. den he was getting cold, so all of us fake to be going out of the pool, to make him get out.. so after he finally was forced into the hse.. me n leon continued swimming.. kelvin, my uncle n grandpa went to bath liao cos later wan go out eat dinner.. so swim swim swim den they finish bathing, me n leon aso go mandi d..

den after bathing, me n leon was waiting outside for the adults to get ready, n i saw another dead bat in front of the bungalow.. anyway den leon told me, kelvin used his phone to replied something to his 'girl-fren'.. n aso we saw kelvin being very busy wif his phone all of a sudden, so i pretend wan play his hp games lo.. n went to check the inbox, he really took the 'girl-fren's number n smsed her.. so leon was super pissed lo.. this kelvin ar, he's bloody desperate for a gf.. anybody aso want.. even his own younger cousins, he aso wan to kao =.= feel like slapping him.. den when waiting for the food, me n leon started camwhoring lo xD

den balik to the bungalow, juz in time to watch the fireworks.. now i noe why so many dead bats d.. i think they kena hit by the fireworks lo.. anyway played wif the twins till its their bedtime, den took the air mattress up to leon n kelvin's room cos no more bed for me to sleep le.. so i put the mattress in between leon n kelvin's bed, on mp4, open junk food n started chatting wif them.. leon n kelvin kinda got into a fight cos of the number thingy.. den duno wat time, leon offed the light, n so i felt sleepy.. but they still wanted to talk, but not to each other, but to me.. so as long as someone say something i'll reply: oh.. yalar.. mm.. ah.. all those simple reply to tell them im still listening or wateva.. but actually i didn't listen to a single word.. after leon finsh talking, when i tot i can finally sleep, kelvin started talking to me.. den after him, leon talk again.. den i think i dosed out for awhile.. cos i didnt hear leon's phone ring.. cos i was so used to as long as i hear someone talk, i'll reply something.. so when i heard leon's voice, duno wat's he talking la.. too sleepy d.. i said oh.. den he talked again, i said huh? wat? den he used his pillow n hit me right in the face, so i was wide awake.. oni den i knew he was talking on the phone wif his gf or watsoeva la.. i know its a girl la.. den when leon walk out of the room to talk privately, this kelvin became jealous.. so he started grumbling.. i think that was like my lullaby cos after hearing him grumble, i wanted to dose out again.. after like 30mins, kelvin was pissed, so he said loudly: WHERE'S THIS LEON AR?! I WANNA FIND HIM! when i heard the last sentence, i was wide awake again cos i dun wanna be alone in a big, dark room all by myself.. so i took my pillow n drag myself out of the mattress.. in my head i was shouting: WHY CANT U GUYS JUZ LET ME SLEEP?!!!!

kelvin went down, i went down.. i keep leaning against any wall near me n look at him sleepily.. he went up again, so i folo lo.. den he finally found leon at the balcony.. this leon aso smart.. he noe kelvin will come find him, so he close the curtain n the balcony door, so no one will noe where he is.. so this kelvin's face went black lo.. den finally when he's satisfied, he went back into the room.. i was like YES!!! SLEEP!!! but le hor.. this kelvin started complaining to me n treated me like im his counsellor or something =.= so here i go again wif the mm, ah, oh.. den duno when i fell asleep.. i dun even noe it.. see how tired am i.. i think it should be 3-4am d gua that time..

next morning, my granduncle woke us up at 8AM!!! stupid la.. den again i went swimming..but this time i swim alone, while kelvin pack his things n leon juz stand at to the swimming pool chatting wif me.. he told me last night, bout 2 hours of talking on the phone, when he came into the room, he said: anybody awake? 3times.. no reply..den the final time he shouted YO! ANYBODY AWAKE?! still no reply.. LOL wei.. den when he lied on the bed, i turn, so my mattress make some sound la.. den kelvin was awake.. they talked a bit.. den leon said i said something.. it went something like this..

me: *mumbling something*
leon: eh, u awake ar?
me: no la.. im sleeping..
leon: if u're sleeping,why are u talking to me..
me: cos u kacau me ma..
after saying that, leon said i straight away slept again.. LOL!! i can so imagine myself doing that wei.. but the best part was i didn't remember anything n i can still say such stupid things when im unconscious.. stupid rite..

bout 12pm we aso check out d lo.. den at night had dinner with all my cousins n their parents.. den i went back to my dad's hse..

wa... dis is a SUPER LONG POST WEI!!!!!!!!!!!

17/12/08

2009-01-15T17:39:00.002+11:00

woke up at 10 something.. cos cs was taking up the whole mattress, n i was sleeping on the cold, hard floor.. den when she finally moved, i went back to sleep n woke up at 2pm later.. when we woke up, chi's mom went to take a nap.. lol..

den that day we wanted to make some cupcakes so we went ss2 to buy the ingredients lo.. by the time bought everything liao, reach back at the apartment, already bout 5 or 5.30pm liao lo.. so we faster bake.. put this n that.. n as usual there's some arguments.. lol.. the typical type, where there's too many opinions i think o.O

den after baking, we went swimming.. so long since my last swim u noe.. see water aso beh tahan liao, straight away jump in d.. swim swim swim.. happy d den go up eat our so called 'cupcakes'.. it was really really nice, but it didn't look like cupcakes, it looked more like bread+cake.. cos well no1. we dun have the paper thingy, no2. chi's mom took all of it out n put it in the container n no3. we were lazy, or maybe that's juz me :x

then duno wat time cs's mom came n took me back to my dad's hse.. i was actually suppose to follow my cousin to melaka today, but cos im such a good fren, i'll folo my grandparents to melaka tomoro xD

so that night, my dad fetch me back to my grandma hse.. end of story.. NEXT POST!!

16/12/08 Tuesday

2009-01-15T02:27:00.003+11:00

when to cs hse at like 8am den played random computer games the whole day till like evening.. cos that night cs was going to overnight at chi hse so i juz followed lo.. that night slept at like 5am.. thx to chi la.. its like a MUST to sleep at 5AM!!! so that night, wait morning.. we slept at maybe bout 6am, including all the chit chats.. no offence la chi..

kk.. end of another day.. see ya..

15/12/08 Monday

2009-01-15T02:06:00.003+11:00

woke up at like 10am...? dad came back from work n fetch me to my grandma hse.. den i kinda forgotten wat happen that day.. i think i was juz there, watching tv or something.. den evening i aso forgot whether did i go jogging, play bsb or juz practically did nothing.. oh wait!!! I REMEMBER! the whole afternoon i was at my cousin hse playing computer games till like 8pm.. den my dad came n fetch me back to du.. cs n i was suppose to go sunway lagoon on tues but we were kinda tired from working so we decided not to go.. but anyways i went back to du cos i could still go over to cs hse n hang around..

this day is over.. finally a short post.. LOL!

14/12/08

2009-01-15T00:31:00.001+11:00

i overnight again but not chi.. we were suppose to reach at pusat sains negara at 8.30am.. so we planned to wake up at 7am.. alarm ring, stretch a hand, press a button, go back to sleep.. the oni way to wake us up was a fright.. we oni woke up when a black object was standing at the end of the bed .. i duno bout cs la, but to me it was.. it kinda frighten me for awhile.. after that when my brain was starting to function, i tot that was cs, n cs tot that was me.. but it turns out to be chi n it was 7.30am.. so woke up, washed up, wore the astro uniform, put on the pass, eat mcdonalds, reached the place..

reached there expecting another tiring yet boring day.. but it turned out quite good =) today because the big boss was coming, so our boss gave each of us some job.. i was put to the 'xiao tai yang' booth =) but cs was put to a tamil booth.. kesian her man.. everybody was talking tamil around her. lol.. den chi n another colleaque of ours, ida (said as eeda or something) was put to the nickelodeon booth to fold bandanas n blow balloon.. my job was to teach children play mind games like puzzles n wateva.. all the kids was so cute la..

but le.. i cant stand the parents la.. some parents it should be the kids doing, but they got impatient wif their kids n did it themselves =.= then le.. the parents were so fierce to their kids, the kids were so scared, they dare not touch anything.. there was 1 lil boy, think bout 5years old...? the maid or 2nd wife or wateva la was helping the boy doing a puzzle, den this lady, the boy's actual mom came, push the other lady's hand n shouted: DON'T HELP HIM LA!!! the lady's hand nearly hit my face u noe.. it was like 2cm from my face! den i explain the game to the mom, so the mom was talking to the boy, actually more like scolding.. LISTEN LA!! NO! NOT THAT 1!! PUT THE OTHER 1!! WHY U SO STUPID 1!!! the poor boy was so scared.. screw the mom la.. i ignored her, went closer to the boy, n said juz try, dun care.. when he looked up, i smiled at him, he looked more relax n confident n continued doing.. in the end he managed=) poor thing la.. i feel like shouting at the mom: LEAVE UR SON ALONE LA!! THINK UR VOICE VERY NICE TO HEAR AR, SHOUT SO LOUD!!!

*moving on* time pass so fast when u're busy.. before i noe it was lunch when cs n chi came to find me.. but i was taking over my other colleaque's job.. so they went to eat first.. the booth was sooooo crowded n busy.. one kid after another.. den finally my colleaque came back but by then, cs n chi finished eating n cs was now at the nickelodeon booth aso.. so the 3 of them was together, me the sesat 1.. i ate lunch alone today.. after eating back to work.. i teached a lil girl to do her first puzzle.. haha.. when i ask the girl to play, the mom was like: no need to teach her, she dont noe how to do 1 la.. but i teached her anyway.. hahahaha.. the mom was so grateful to me xD

den when i was teaching n playing wif the kids, i turned to the back n i saw somebody's sportshoes, looked up n this big video recorder thing, that 1 the camera men use 1 ar was kinda in front of me.. frighten me man.. i straight away turn back, dare not turn to the back again.. lol..

den after working for awhile.. the guy i was working wif said: why wet 1 ar my pants?? den i was like o.O den i felt my pants was wet too, at the knee there.. looked carefully, there was a pile of water on the floor.. we're not sure whether is that pee or juz water.. let's juz hope it was water.. so we moved the table away from the 'water'.. n continue working.. den this lil cute girl keep coming to play puzzles, if not she'll appear in front of me, like playing wif me like that..she sooo cute la.. she's like my daughter like that, stick to me, somemore same surname as me.. 'lin si rou'.. CUTEEEEE LA!!! xP den when i was teaching a kid, the kid's parent asked me wat time this finishes? i said 4pm.. den she said so that means wan to finish work d la.. i was like o.O?? *look at watch* O.O yea wor.. it was like 3.45pm.. time really pass fast when u're busy.. the day before was like 30mins after 30 mins =.=

after everyone went home, we got to do the cleaning up.. the carpets was sooooo dusty.. that day we went back at like 6pm or something.. after that went dinner wif cs in 1U.. after that i went back to my dad's hse i think.. tired from 2 days of work, i think i slept right away after reaching my dad's hse..

okay.. that's the end of this day =D

another update =)

2009-01-12T01:34:00.002+11:00

continue the post before..

13/12/08
woke up at 6am cos got work.. we set 3-5 alarms and it was all SUPER LOUD ones.. okay, maybe not that loud, but still quite loud.. but still we cant wAke up.. we woke up like 3 alarms later.. so damn tired la..

after fighting over the toilet, chiasing's mom took us to mcdonalds for breakfast.. we were suppose to reach at Pusat Sains Negara at 7am but we reached there at like 6.50am.. we were working for the astro's school holiday camp thingy for 2 days.. we were actually scared that this was going to be some kind of scam but after seeing some ppl there, we felt much better.. in the sms the lady that hired us sent said we got to reach there at 7am but she herself reached at 7.30am.. den after seeing all the other part-timers, we felt very underaged.. but we tot maybe they juz looked old xD

but when the real boss came, he said: 'oni now i got to noe there's some secondary students here, who's that??' so 3 of us juz raised our hands, it turns out we really were underaged.. this was suppose to be oni for above 18 but they needed more ppl, so they employed us.. so they started giving out works.. me n tze chi was ground = meaning we juz need to walk around, help the other booths for games, guide ppl around or something like that.. chiasing was the extras =.= but her job wasnt much different.. her job is to stand at the entrance n welcome ppl or something while me n chi was juz walk n look.. DAMN KAO SIEN!!!!! whole day juz stand n walk.. my leg damn bloody pain u noe.. n time seem to pass SOOOOOOOO SLOOOOOWLY!!!! everytime i asked for time, 30 mins juz passed..

bout 1pm something we had our lunch lo.. den back we go to standing.. after that chiasing was asked to work for stage, juz doing some back stage thingy or something la.. but at least she had something to do.. den that chi ar.. she keeps slacking!!! n she thinks our boss cant see us.. she thinks its so cool to slack.. i mean yea, i wanna slack too.. but u're earning their money, at least show them u're DOING something la..

den bout 3pm something, we had to give out balloons.. it was best part of the whole day cos finally we had something to do.. when we came out with balloons the kids was rushing towards us, snatching all the balloons.. we juz had to stand there for 10 secs, n our job was done.. the worst was the grandmas.. they juz come n say: these are for my grandchildren. den they'll snatch like 7 or 8 balloons =.= when doing this the clowns kinda fooled around with us.. when we were walking back stage to take balloons, 1 clown took a balloon n hit my head, den another time, the clown came running, aimed at chi n hit her head with the same balloon.. den when finished giving out balloons, we rested back stage.. the clown came again, saw cs n said: kamu belum le. n hit her head.. LOL!! u should sit the shock in cs face when she saw the clown! den the other clown came n asked: u okay? cs said: NO!

bout 4pm something everybody also balik d.. so we juz clean up a bit n went home.. it was such a BORING N TIRING DAY.. cos we had NOTHING to do.. juz stand n cant sit.. so all of us was like complaining.. we regreted not taking a booth.. the booths are all for games.. so at least we'll be busy playing with kids..

chiasing's mom come n took us to klcc.. reached there n went walking around.. but because we were soooooo tired, after like 15mins all 3 of us was complaining, finding anywhere juz to sit! n we were suppose to meet up wif cs's mom at 7.30pm but it was like oni 5.30pm or 6pm and we couldnt contact her.. so the oni thing to do was WAIT.. our legs was so painful, we desperately need a place to sit.. so we keep going into shoe shops, after sitting for like 15mins, we go into another 1.. we did this till like 7pm.. den we got so grumpy, we juz waited at the place we were suppose to meet up and lean on a tiang..

den a foreigner guy came n asked chi where's dunkin donuts.. this was how it went (its not really the original la):

guy looks at chi : excuse me, do u noe where was donkin donuts?
chi straight away turns to me: eh, where's donkin donuts?
me straight away turns to chiasing: eh, where's donkin donuts?
chiasing: huh? donkin donuts ar?
guy: cos im suppose to meet my sis there..
chiasing: erm i think its there(points left) or there (points right)
me: i noe its on this floor..
guy looks at us curiously : okay.. ty..

LOL!!! it was kinda funny.. we think he was actually amused at how we communicate.. i think he asked us because we were actually wearing the astro uniform.. so maybe he tot we were some workers, maybe he even tot we were the information counter ppl, cos we were standing near it.. after talking, that guy walked pass us, he looked at us, and had some kind of look like dissapointed or something.. duno how to say la.. but if he walked pass us, meaning we gave him the wrong direction.. lol..

den FINALLY came 7.30pm.. when we saw cs's mom we felt so bloody crappy, i could bang the tiang wif my head.. in the end, we were so crappy n tired, we went to cs hse n order pizza.. den after that we played the pc n chat for awhile.. we overnight at cs hse again cos tomoro still got work, n chi n i was lazy to wake up early to come to cs hse.. i think we slept at 1.30am AGAIN.. that's it for today..

WOW!! this is a long post O.O

updating my blog

2009-01-07T22:19:00.003+11:00

okay okay.. now im using my blog again.. so here's wat i done so far.. i'll juz blog till where i want to cos it'll be a very very very long post..

10/12/08
through the flight from aus to singapore, i was watching movie n listening to song.. quite boring.. i was sandwich-ed between 2 ladies.. the lady on my right was older, maybe 20+...?? but the person on my left looks maybe my age or older...

bout 8 hours later im in singapore.. it was SOOOOOOOOOOO BORING.. i had to wait for like 3 hours.. so i was wondering here n there.. looking at chocolates.. soooooooo tempting..

I LOVE SINGAPORE AIRPORT!!!

it makes u feel so rich, i think.. its so big n kinda comfortable and modern.. anyway i got fed up wondering, bought a bar of choc, when to my gate n sit there.. took out my storybook n mp4 n started reading n eating..

den the time came to finally GO HOME!!!! when i knew my seat was a window seat, i was laughing to myself.. the air-stewardess gave me a funny look xD anyway my row also nobody, so i was sitting on my own..

reached msia at bout 9pm.. my grandparents came to fetch den we go kai xin restaurant 'da bao'.. lol.. den slept at like 2am.. lol..

11/12/08
kinda forgotten wat happen on this day.. but i think i went to my dad's hse n watch tv.. den at nite i was back in my grandma hse..

12/12/08
cos i still have jet-lag so i could still wake up at 6am.. woke up at 6am, wanted to go jogging, but it was still so dark.. so i kinda went back to sleep.. bout 7am woke up cos i was going to see my buddies for the first time in 2 months.. 8am, went padang, den slowly all of them came! *note: almost all* n it was drizzling (dunno spell).. me, xian, yvonne, amanda played bsb under the rain while the others chat under the pondok..

after that, bout 10am, went kai xin with phui yee, schew ee, kai xian n jia qian.. den me n kai xian decided to go play badminton at 3K.. hehe.. so we played from 1-3pm i think.. den went A&W.. den my long time no see bestie smsed me, asked whether i wanted to work.. so i said yea.. it was a 2-day work.. so i went overnight at chiasing hse that nite cos we got to reach that place at 7am!!! that means we got to wake up at 6am =.= chiasing's cousin was also gonna work wif us, so she overnight-ed too.. cos i still had jet-lag, i think i slept at 11.30pm.. but becos some ppl was making such a perfect job trying to keep quiet, i woke up at 12am.. den we chat n fooled around till 1.30am i think.. i got some pic of that, but le.. paiseh le n lazy upload.. next time la xD

this is it for now.. i noe its lil but at least i did SOMETHING to my blog..

my flight details

2008-12-09T11:37:00.002+11:00

since jq ask for my flight details so here it is:
10/12/08
my shuttle bus will come to fetch me at 8.30am aussie time (5.30am msia time) to the airport.. den i'll be sleeping in the airport for 3 hours.. aussie airport not like msia n singapore airport so big n nice.. looks more like supermarket with not much shop =.= flying at 12.40pm aussie time (9.40pm msia time), singapore airlines.. den im reaching singapore at 8.40pm aussie time (5.40pm msia time).. den im gonna be wandering around for 2 hours and a half.. den at 8pm msia time i'll be flying to msia! den im reaching at 8.55pm (msia time) back home!!!! but during the process i'll be sooo lonely.. im flying alone!

i feel bad to leave my mom for 42 days la.. i damn scared she staying here alone le.. den somemore i try to set up the webcam for her, but the stupid webcam duno got wat problem.. the light on the webcam is on but somehow cant install.. stupid cheap thing..

*cant wait to be home!* *but i wan my mom too.. lol..*

last day of work =.=

2008-12-03T17:41:00.004+11:00

IM PISSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my sandwich making skills got better.. BUT guess how much she pay me.. 150 dollars oni..
if im working one type of job, i dun mind.. but i do so many things.. she ask me do that, i do. she ask me do dis, i do.. here are the things i do:

-cleaning plate, cups n bla bla.. wif HOT WATER.. u noe how painful anot..
-stacking.. after cleaning, of cos the cups n plates aso very hot ma cos use hot water.. so again my hand..
-taking orders
-sandwich making
-cashier
-cleaning tables
-giving their coffee n food.. run here run there
-out of 7 hours can oni rest/sit for 15mins (today i work 8hours)
-got some heavylifting
-sweeping, wiping wateva u do after no customers

all these for soooo little.. n by the time i reach malaysia or transfer to ringgit aso not much la.. all those money changer sure charge duno how much la.. n sorry ar all my buddies.. i cant buy present for u all.. money too little.. i need give my mom some..

conclusion is today my mood damn bad..

2nd day of work..

2008-12-02T16:44:00.002+11:00

its about the same as the first.. but it was kinda better n kinda worse.. i did more sandwich making today cos i think they finally thrust me to make them.. but it was still very messy and confusing.. but i was better -by the little-est, tiny-est bit of 1-2%.. at least i improved xD

BUT

when i was making someone's sandwich, i drop a slice of something that kinda looks n have the same effect dragonfruit have when it touches ur shirt n hand.. so my bodyglove shirt is ruined thx to my clumsiness (btw aussie no bodyglove or wild channel or tropicana life)

den i burn my hand 3 TIMES!! 1 was when i gave english tea, my finger accidentally touch the hot water.. twice was when i wanted to toast somebody's sandwich, i touch the steel.. damn painful la.. somemore now got scar d =.= my fingers....... now oni i noe how clumsy i am.. and again she still haven paid me.. hopefully she'll pay me tomoro la.. since i dun think i did a good job, i think she wont pay me much T.T

*8 more days to malaysia!!!*

first day of work..

2008-12-01T17:49:00.004+11:00

first day of work.. yes, which means i ponteng skul.. thurs will the last day i'll go to skul dis year.. because friday i got appointment wif another skul principal den monday n tuesday im lazy to go skul den wed IM FLYING BACK TO MALAYSIA!!! erm.. sorry ar if i din buy present for u guys cos i really no money here..

anyway went to meet the lady who had work there for bout 2 years at the train station.. cos i duno the place.. she's a philipino, Angie. i think bout 20+ gua her age.. den my boss le is from turkey.. she bout 50 gua.. im working in dis place till wed oni.. cos im juz a replacement for the boss's husband.. dun ask me how much per hour.. i duno cos she say got to see how good i am wor.. so i cant even estimate how much i'll get.. anyway im working in a cafe, called Touche Cafe.. i tell u it was a DISASTER! not really la but quite close.. *now i no mood blog d, thanks to my MOM! she ar.. ppl tell her do ONE SMALL THING ar by calling the principal to say im not going to skul anymore except thurs ar.. she CANT EVEN DO IT.. den she wants me to listen to her by coming to aussie cos she say so!* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!

*chiiiiiillllll*

its 20 mins from my hse.. n obviously i walk there.. they say its making sandwiches but actually its multi-tasking.. u'll see wat i meant..

first i had to memorized all types of coffee initial den memorize bread type n how it look like.. got brown/wholemeal, white, multi grain, turkish, thin, thick........ den she teach me make normal sandwich, den toast it.. den the breakfast ppl came at 8.30-10.. fuiyo.. soooo many.. they order this coffee, that sandwich, that coffee, dis sandwich.. in house, take away.. i PENING la!! somemore talk so fast n soft.. i notice quai lo/poh LOVES to talk like that.. den the sandwich need wrap this way, that way, cut like dis n like that.. take dis coffee, that coffee to that lady or that man.. so many how she wan me noe which 1.. so i go table by table, saying: "anyone order cappucino or wateva??" den breakfast time over.. now like dead oni, one person aso dun have.. so i got to take the plates n cups, den arrange the newspaper den do cleaning..

bout 11.30 i took my 15mins lunch wif Angie..we ate the hot food the cafe has.. 15mins oni u noe out of 10hours!!!!
den BOOOOM!!
the lunch ppl come d.. most of them the same ppl as the breakfast 1, but still there's some new one.. den somemore now got hot food, lagi complicated, lagi pening.. den somemore i duno the price.. angie din teach me that.. oni the coffee price i noe.. one time i told the customer 2.50, den he say: no, i think its 2.70. thank god that guy was honest.. if not die lo.. the sandwich i do all messy.. den angie got to check or redo.. den sometimes i forgot wear gloves.. one word to describe SESAT..den sometimes the customer get sooooo frustrated with me n so does the boss.. so today i keep saying sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry.. den because of me, they have to give some customers discount.. dis lasted for like 3 hours.. i tell u the ppl juz keep coming.. 1 go out, 3 come in.. den again i got to bring coffee n sandwich to the tables.. dis time was the WORST!!! MORE PPL, MORE FOOD, somemore not 1-2 person per table.. its 6-10 PPL PER TABLE!!! pening ar pening..

at 2pm finally peace... so we started cleaning up.. i took the plates n cups from the tables.. i nearly drop some plates u noe.. frighten me.. somemore everything i take while they juz wash some dishes.. den again rearrange newspaper, wipe the counter n the place make sandwich.. once in a while got customers la.. den i wipe the wet fork n knives den fold them in tissue, they called it servier or something.. first time someone ask me for some, i was like 'huh? o.O' den angie pointed the tissue to me den oni i noe..

den at 3.15pm i walk home.. SHE DIN PAY ME U NOE!!!!!!! hopefully she'll pay me on wed if not i go through so much stupidness for nothing.. that time i'll make her into sandwich.. a rather do the cleaning up den the ordering i tell u... soooooo COMPLICATED.. somemore oni got 3 person do oni..

blogging again

2008-11-29T19:04:00.002+11:00

hehe.. sorry din blog.. cos there's nothing much to blog..

okay.. results..
maths(calculator) -------->86%!! =)
maths(non-calculator) --->96%~~~!!!! xD
geography---------------->62%
chinese ------------------>93%!!!!! haha.. first time get so high for chinese n the essay
english ------------------> FAILED by 1 mark.. haahaahahahahahaha

today went to the city by train.. much much much better than KL man.. a lot of shops there obviously.. me n my mom actually went there to find a job for my mom.. in a restaurant, but they ask my mom bring resume oni see how first =.= wanna slap them.. walk here n there, find left n right, ask here n there.. so hard find the bloody restaurant den tell us dis.. the city is SOOO HUMONGOUS.. even ONE street aso can walk for 1 hour 30 mins.. but lucky i recognised the way back to the train station xD

anyway on the way back, 2 guys were fighting! n really fighting.. i can hear the punching sound.. damn scary.. i kesian the guy that keep kena punched.. seriously damn hard u noe.. so agressive n hard till i can hear the punching sound of a human face!!! n not a hard punching bag u noe.. a soft fleshy human face.. the guy that was 'winning' was shirtless.. his muscle damn yeng le xD got pecs 1 le.. duno how many, cant see clearly cos i was quite far.. go near later me aso he punch.. they fight till rubbish bin aso knock down, nearly bang into someone else somemore.. den 1 calefair idiot come n make it worse.. so from 1 vs 1 become 2 vs 1.. but lucky someone pull away the extra guy.. den they were getting closer to us, so my mom pulled me into a clothing shop, so i duno in the end wat happen..

when we got out, they were gone.. but my mom said that when we were standing at the traffic light, the guy that kena bitten was standing on my left.. n his face was teruk.. my mom said got scratches, blood, bruises.. kesian man.. i din see him, duno why..

so that's it for now.. hmm.. n good news IM GOING BACK ON 10TH DECEMBER!!!! most likely..

i lost track of how many days d..

2008-11-20T16:05:00.002+11:00

why is everyone telling me to go die.. o.O im hurt xD

anyway i think after posting this post more ppl will tell me to die..

yesterday there was a promotion thingy.. its suppose to encourage ppl to go shop at 'David Jones'.. so they have some serious discounts but no matter how cheap it is, i still wont have the money to buy.. den they aso gave free food n drinks.. n the drinks was WINE, apple n orange juice.. n they were serving in wine glasses.. but i was under age so i drank apple juice.. it was the best apple juice i drank.. den somemore drink from wine glass.. fuiyo.. den after that, i took chocolate fountain with marshmallow n strawberry.. xDDD damn nice.. *feeling the stabbing from my fellow frens* duno how much the company rugi man yesterday.. juz the wine aso damn expensive d lo.. somemore some ppl take 3-4 times..

okay.. today.. let's see.. nothing much oni the sports thingy..

so again took the train to Hornsby to the indoor court.. today its suppose to be girls n boys double but girls oni got 7 girls.. so i played the forfit(not sure of the spelling) game with a fat boy.. but at least this guy was actually friendly to at least co-operate with me.. n u noe wat.. we won but oni by 1 point =.= 21-20 damn stupid.. cos this was a forfit game, win or lose aso no points so i guess 4 of us (me, fat boy n 2 girls, our opponents) din give a damn.. all 4 of us were laughing the whole time.. half way through the game, the guys that were playing behind hit a shuttlecock to my head.. i tell u it was a bullseye.. it hit directly on my head n bounce off.. it was so funny n i felt like an idiot kinda..

oh yea.. guess how much i got for science?!!!

71%!!!

when i got my paper i was expecting less than 50% meaning i failed.. but instead i got 71%.. i think i wan buy toto d.. xD

Welcome to Australia, Clarice =)

2008-11-19T17:29:00.002+11:00

once again today msia loses a citizen while aussie gain another cos clarice will be flying to aussie here! welcome =) but too bad she's staying so far, in brisbane, queensland n im in chatswood, sydney =.= totally different state..

n guess wat!!
TEACHERS ON STRIKE!!!! today..
cool huh.. first time i hear of such thing.. teachers are suppose to be like role model n now they are on strike! so that means students are all sooo happy cos today skul starts at 11am! haha.. 2 hours more to sleep.. if teachers in msia go on strike, sure kena 'chao you yu' xD

during exam today, i got soooo sien that i counted how many girls in year 9 have short hair.. u noe how many?
FOUR oni!! yes.. 4!!! n obviously im one of them.. xD 2 guai poh, 2 asians..

someone give $20(aussie dollar) me for christmas present.. i wan to buy some earring, they're so nice T.T

n for game lovers here is juz like a paradise.. today my fren showed me a shop that sell ps games n all those.. there's ps1, ps2. ps3, x-box, wii games.. wii is something like psp but its much nicer.. if im not wrong, i think it's touchscreen.. n 1 more, i forgotten the name.. n it seems there's another new 1 coming out.. sooo jealous la.. my fren, chloe (cant really stand her, a bit crazy 1, but wat to do) she's so bloody rich!!! she has all of those!!! n she has a lot of all those cd games... n for 1, its at least $45.. juz now she nearly bought a $70 one! =.= go out with her, i feel so poor..

u all come here la.. at least for holiday la.. i wan to hang out wif u guys.. at least i'll feel normal..
PLEASE COME HERE!!! PLEASE!! *begging with innocent eyes* xD

1 month in aussie

2008-11-18T16:58:00.002+11:00

=) its the exam week here for year 9!! n it'll be the one n oni chance for me to fail the exams n not get scolding from anyone.. yesterday history i left half of the paper empty.. hahaha.. i seriously enjoy failing exams..

it's getting cold AGAIN!! ish.. i seriously hate the cold.. make my leg n hand feel so numb..

n THANK YOU, jia qian!!! since she did most of the job, she should get extra credit.. =)
THANK YOU!!

after a week of skul..

2008-11-14T17:05:00.002+11:00

sorry din blog for so long.. got to study a bit as i seriously dunno wat the teacher is talking about but so far i've oni studied 6 chapters of maths.. who say malaysia's maths is hard, here's worse.

hehe.. i recieved the mail from jia qian n all the others.. =) thank you guys soooooo much!! u all did it just for me during pmr.. aww.. im so touched!! xD THANK YOU! i love it.. but 1 thing, where's the bsb photos!!! xD when im free, i actually go through all the pics.. everyone look sooo happy.. very long din laugh or smile so happily like that lo.. if u guys wan to see me during christmas, better pray hard that on 20 december i can get the plane ticket cos now im on waiting list.. *fingers cross*

okay.. overall the first week of skul went better than i thought..

so tuesday n wednesday was okay, nothing much to report.. wednesday, in IT, i finally got a fren there.. michelle from korea.. so it wasn't so boring as the first time..

thursday, we had sports for the last period.. i chose badminton instead =) cos my fren was in the skul badminton team n they were lacking of a girl. den so ngam im new n i haven't chose any sports yet so i went.. we sat the train to Hornsby, another suburb to an indoor court near there.. so unfair, the skul's not going to pay our train ticket, so i've go to spend $2.70.. it took bout 30mins there, so we ate lunch in the train.. our match was with any random skul.. it's not a competition, juz playing for fun.. den we were suppose to play mix double.. as i dunno the guys in the team, me n my partner didn't co-operate at all.. me n him total strangers.. i dun even noe his name.. i din even seen him in skul before.. so he played his side n i played mine.. but as usual we lost.. the stupid opponent keep smashing ME!! he smash somemore really AIM at me 1 u noe =.= hit my leg, hit my hand.. damn painful.. n thanks to 2 person back in malaysia, i already have fobia for smashes =.= *cough wei tar cough* *cough stanley eng cough* xD n adding to my unhappy mood that i got smashed the whole time, the stupid teacher think i duno how to play.. =.= honestly, im kinda better than a few girls.. after that, we sat the train back..

okay.. now friday meaning today.. 100+ japanese students came today.. for each of the volunteer in my skul, they have 2 japanese buddies.. so they bring their buddies around or to their classes.. most of my frens volunteered, so that means i was quite lonely today.. but i did kinda talked with the japanese.. they were very friendly.. but their english sucks.. worst than anybody i noe in malaysia.. it was like chicken n duck talking =.=

den i had PE again today n we played CRICKET.. a very famous game in aussie.. i was worse in this than hockey.. i did the batter meaning someone throw the ball at me n i hit.. i didn't hit a single ball, i was worse than the japanese girls =.= i really prefer playing bsb n badminton now..

den after the girls, the boys played for the rest for the hour.. so we were sitting on the padang n it was like 11+am, damn freaking hot.. n the japanese girls' skin were so fair, so i know what they were thinking.. so i asked allen (now i noe helen's name is actually allen, my bad) to asked them whether they wanna sit under the shade n they were like: o.O?? *crow passing by*, so i said under the tree.. they were like blur for awhile den finally one said "tree? tree!! yes yes!! tree! tree! tree!" before that, when i first met the japanese, i notice it was very hard for the others to speak to them in english, so i asked the japanese girls:
me: "do u noe chinese??"
japanese girls: *blur* "oh! u chinese!"
me: "yea, im chinese. do u SPEAK chinese??"
girls: *blur* *talked to each other* "we japanese."
that prove how bad their english were.. thank god after PE, i had a fren, erna, an australian but she was in japan most of her life till dis year she came back here.. so she knows how to speak n listen to them, so she did most talking.. after that, other classes weren't big enough for them, so my frens n their buddies went to the canteen for the rest of the day..

me n another girl, heather walked to science class.. but somehow our class was changed to the computer room so we played the pc.. it's not fair.. the japanese girls got to be at the canteen while the japanese boys didn't.. so we went on9 to get a translation thingy to talk to them.. seriously, i duno how allen, millie, joanne communicate with them.. if they have erna with them maybe it'll be okay..

n it turns out that my badminton partner was all along in my science class =.= dis prove how unobservant i am..

during lunch, allen, millie, erna, their other frens n 2 japanese boys played clothe frisbee.. looked damn fun, wanted to join but they din invite me n i duwan to kacau them, so i juz sat under the tree reading the english book my teacher asked me to read =.=

that's it for this week.. oh yea.. u noe during recess n lunch, i'll follow allen they all to the big padang n sit under the tree.. its sooooo relaxing.. really wish malaysia could do that..

so overall everything was good.. come la u all!!!!

FIRST DAY OF SKUL!!!

2008-11-10T18:06:00.002+11:00

im gonna tell u guys the whole day.. including minor stuff =)

today i woke up feeling nervous (nearly cant sleep last night).. dressed up, look at myself one last time n walk out.. its about 20-25 mins walk to my skul.. n skul starts at 8.50am..

nearing the skul, i start seeing A LOT of students walking then i reach skul.. went to the office n met the teacher in charge.. she asked a girl to bring to me to my class.. she's aso year 9 n an original australian, meaning guai po la.. her name is helen.. i think.. den she introduced me to sophie, aso an original australian, den a girl that look like an indian, Milly(or something, din ask her name >.<) 8.50am the bell rang, n helen showed me to my roll class.. everyday we got to report ourself there.. it was at room 56..

helen was in a different roll class as i, so she drop me there n went off.. so there i met some other girls.. first girl i met was pre, she's from india, year 9.. den some other indian-looking girls n original australian.. den 1 of the indian-looking girls suddenly looked at me n said "OMG! OMG! THERE'S SOMETHING ON UR COLLAR!! OMG!!" i tot she was juz pranking me, so i said "im not scared" den she pull my collar again n said "REALLY!!!! OMG! OMG!!" (typical b!tch) it turns out there really was a bug on my collar.. it was brown, flat n small with a lot of legs.. i wanted to take it off but she hit my hand away n said "i'll do it" den she started screaming again "EEEEEWWWWWWW!! EW! EW! EW!" den she hit it to my hand.. again i wanted to take it away n she hit my hand again n started ew-ing.. =.=

after that, a girl that looks like an asian came.. she was born in victoria, australia n her name is victoria.. lol.. she's year 8..

after roll class, i have PE (there's 15 mins rest for us to get to the class).. so helen came n get me.. it seems she as the same class as me.. so we went to the padang.. the padang is 4 times bigger than smk usj12.. anyway so both of us striped.. chill.. not really la.. we wore our PE shorts under our skirt n oni take off the skirts, change to sports shoes n we're off =) we din bother to change the white shirt to PE shirt cos if not we got to walk all the way to the other side of skul n this skul is BIG.. n u dont really expect us to striped rite...

there's oni 5 girls in my PE class n the others are all boys (so far no leng zai) or maybe i was to shy to really look around =.= but today 2 girls got to go cos they were making sushi to sell today =) anyway guess wat we played..
HOCKEY
i NEVER IN MY LIFE played hockey before so i was like a sakai holding a stick =.= but luckily helen n milly(..?) teached me.. oh yeah, milly's aso in my PE class.. i didn't noe the freaking ball was so heavy so the first time i hit, it juz rolled a bit n stoped =.= i think bout the length of 2 rulers oni.. den second time i hit air =.= worse.. but third time's the charm.. i finally hit the stupid ball to helen!! thank god.. but it wasnt a good hit =.= den when i was juz standing looking around, letting helen n milly play.. this guy standing next to me ask (its nothing, dun simply think) n its juz a something-like-original conversation, cant remember that much la.. so many conversation today:
guy: u new??
me: yes..
guy: wat skul u came from?
me: im actually from malaysia..
guy: malaysia?! im from indonesia!
me: oh
guy: baru datang ke??
after that he keeps talking to me in malay =.= n he's malay is original indonesian malay.. he speak so freaking fast n got all the slur for r, l n wateva.. *thinking of a word with r* like dari, he says darrrrrri.. nearly can understand wats he saying.. if i wasnt a fast listener (perasan) i will think he's talking japanese or korean =.= his name is michael, been here for 2-3 years n 7 months.. i think o.O

den we had a hockey competition so i juz stand at one corner holding the stick n let everyone else do wat they need to.. i cant play d, still wan block them...?? no way man..

then after that was recess (20mins).. din bother to change back to skirt.. it seems the skul din really bother that much o.O cos the changing room is somehow out of order.. n the toilet aint suitable to change..

during recess michael took me to see another malaysian.. finally!!! walking there, we came across his frens, he told me they are all indonesian, n one of his frens even ask me "indonesian???" i said "malaysian" den we walked away.. finally i met her.. WEE!!! =) finally a malaysian.. it seems that there are more indonesian than malaysian here.. the malaysian girl's name is joanne.. she was in kuen cheng girl skul in malaysian for a year.. she's aso year 9 =)

den i went back to helen.. we juz sat near the padang with another bunch of her frens.. den dis girl with short black hair walked pass.. helen told me she was jessica.. every term she dyes her hair into different colour.. last term it seems to be green n yellow.. this term whole thing black.. nobody knows her real hair colour.. lol..

next is english class.. helen, milly n joanne was in the same class as me!!! the teacher teached analytical essay.. duno wat the hell is it.. actually not teach, ask us to do.. i tell u, i was totally blur.. so through out english class, i din do the hw n juz stared at the clock.. =.= finally the bell ring.. we have 10 mins to get to our next class.. den joanne asked jessica (the different hair colour girl) to send me to my chinese class.. suprise?? she's a guai po n she takes chinese but she still duno chinese =.=

so in chinese class.. my teacher was a guai lo.. shock le.. but he doesn't teach.. he give individual work, not the whole class does the same work.. so he asked me "hui jiang? (noe how to say?), hui ting? (noe how to listen?), hui du? (noe how to read?)" i say yes, yes, yes... den he gave me few pieces of long, thin paper.. each with a sentence n ask me to rearrange then after that copy it.. =.= damn boring.. then anyway i met 2 frens here.. both chinese.. 1 is born here but i think her parents are chinese, so she look chinese.. her name chloe.. she DAMN HYPERACTIVE.. at times cant really stand her.. then the other 1 is from china.. she's christina.. she keeps getting detention.. TWICE today.. =.= for not doing hw..

den came lunch, hang out with chloe n christina for 40 mins.. den went to IT..
this time nobody send me there.. so i got lost.. =.= i walked here n there like some sopoh.. in the end i gave up n asked.. nearly late for that class.. =.= dis class is my last period n it SUCKED!! here no fren at all.. n i duno wat the teacher was talking.. this teacher is the best but the things she's teaching n no frens here, makes it the worst part for today.. in the end i juz open the thing she ask me to open n start staring, not doing anything else.. it was an assignment but wateva.. who ask the teacher din tell me wat the heck im suppose to do.. so anyway there were video recorders in the room.. so the boys as asual will play with it.. i was jus looking around den i saw MY face in the pc next to mine, i was like WTF.. oni den i realize they were recording me for awhile.. =.=

3.15pm!!! YAY!! time to go home.. i waited at the office for chloe n christina.. christina had dentention for the second time.. the first time was after lunch.. so me n chloe walked.. remember i told some of u, my apartment is near the shopping mall..? so we walked to the shopping mall to buy food n shop.. she did the shopping.. she's a rich kid man.. see nice bracelet den buy without seeing the price.. den not enough money she told me to wait in the shop while she get some money from the ATM.. i was like WTF???!! O.O wat to do, im the poor 1.. haiz..

so after that i went back home.. end of story =) damn long i noe.. wanna show u the things i learns today.. took some pics d.. but lazy to upload >.< sry ar..

enjoy =)

19th day in aussie

2008-11-07T10:55:00.004+11:00

im really getting homesick n jealous..

i miss hanging out with my buddies, i miss taking pics with u all.. now all my pics are myself, myself n myself..
the last time i went out with my buddies was 18th October 2008 at the padang in front of my grandparents hse..

everyone is doing something..
-chiasing ---> working
-thung n yvonne ---> going bsb training again
-jiaqian ---> learning guitar (which i promised my xianyu (n some others) i'll learn with her after pmr)
-all the others are going out, having sleepover, having fun with frens

n again i miss my baby.. last night i dreamed i was back in malaysia n my baby came out to greet me.. n i was playing with her.. den i woke up.. n i notice the fur like feeling of Cutie was actually my wool blanket.. =.=

1 day i even woke up n ask myself where am i..

i really really miss everyone n everything in malaysia..

18th day in aussie..

2008-11-06T21:43:00.006+11:00

3 more days to starting skul *biting fingernails* lol..

erm.. yesterday i took some photos from my phone but i cant transfer it to the pc.. stupid cable dunno put where =.= when i find out den i upload the pics la..

anyway the subjects im taking is english, maths, science, chinese (hehe.. i noe a lot of ppl very happy to see this), geography (who says dis year is the last time to learn geo), history (die lo), IT n commerce.. i duno anything bout all those, duno how to catch up..
guess wats my first subject i'll be learning in this skul..

*tada* PJK (but here they call it PE).. duno good news or bad..

today i went to buy my uniform so here are the photos.. i noe u all wan to see.. but all my uniform are second hand.. if not, damn expensive le.. example: skirt new $55, skirt old $10. pants new $35, pants old $10.. den u change to ringgit.. hak sei yarn.. i got 4 choices of uniform to wear.. lol.. help me choose which 1 to wear on the first day la =)

*tada*

choice no1. white polo shirt with skirt.

choice no2. white shirt with skirt.

*note: the skirt is not going to be that short cos its second-hand so that means the gal before me went to make it short =.= fat hao.. but my mom will make it longer =)

choice no3. white polo shirt with pants.

choice no4. white shirt with pants.

n dis is my PE uniform.. its juz an oversize blue shirt n a shorts.. but its so big that the shorts is actually longer than my skirt.. =.= wat to do.. dun have my size..

n i noe some ppl wanna see my room.. its really juz a small room, nothing interesting n aso its very messy so here's the tidy-est corner that i can show u xD

*note: that's my beloved pillows =) actually not really.. they're juz pillows.. lol..

17th day in aussie..

2008-11-05T13:57:00.002+11:00

erm.. who change my pic ar??? o.O

anyway im starting skul next week.. T.T my nightmare begins.. haiz.. going to be the alien again.. hopefully the teachers wont ask to introduce myself in front of the whole class la.. i HATE to do that.. n surely the students will like 'wat??' when i say my name =.=
new girl in skul.. woohoo!!... NOT!!!

now i got to buy their uniform which is quite expensive i think.. here i can choose to wear pants or skirt.. soooo im still choosing.. when i buy my uniform d, i take full length pic to show u all la.. hopefully i dun look weird..

save me~~~~~~~ T.T

aussie

2008-11-01T12:25:00.018+11:00

aussie sucks. malaysia rocks

although aussie
have many leng zai amolang there,
four seasons,
nice outing place,
and have cute koala bear n kangaroos.

but still, aussie sucks.
y?
cause when u r at malaysia,
u can

- eat original bakuteh

yum! yum!

- eat original roti canai

- eat original satay n keropok lekor

- eat original fried kuey tiao n lok lok

write until here i also hungry d. i go makan 1st.

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ok, i'm back. lets continue.

u also can
- speak special language that only pure malaysian knows.
aka rojak speaking.
contohnya:
'' 不要再kaciau我liao啦''
'' apa lu mau?''
'' see wat see?''
'' u tot u very big ar?''
'' eh, relak la''
'' wat oso u say finish lo''
''yalo'' ''nolo'' ''yala'' ''nola''
''lu ki si''

- have friends of various races

- noe how to speak at least 2 languages.
for chinese, more than tat.

- leave peaceful here. ( no war)

- have more public holiday than other country.
y? because
we celebrate New Year, Chinese New Year, Hari Raya, Deepavali n many many more here.

so the conclusion is,
malaysia is better than australlia, right?
who agree?
give some comment plaese.
XD

by athung
that always rocks

TRICK-O-TREAT!!! =)

2008-10-31T23:10:00.002+11:00

it's haloween today!! i oni knew it went i saw a bunch of kids dressing up n walking around.. outdated me.. anyway they were so cute la.. some dressing like witch, monster n even vampire.. first time in my life to see that..

went 'jogging' juz now.. it was more like a walk.. the padang here is soooo NOT meant for jogging.. its for the guys to play rugby.. later jog half way, den u get hit by the rugby.. lol.. n the wind.. hate the wind.. keep making my hair into a bush.. blow here, blow there.. so annoying.. so i dun think i'll get much chance to jog.. sorry ling, i think when u see me i'll be fat, n automatically my stamina........... u noe la..

hmmm.. wat else... i hate my new name!! ish.. it really sound more like GIN than JIN.. my bao zhou po keeps calling me that..
"hello jin.."
"JIIIN, eat dinner.."
"JIIIN, u wan drink this???" or "JIIIN, u wan eat that??"
i think i noe why im getting fat..

kk.. its gonna be midnight d.. so good night n HAPPY HALLOWEEN!! =)
n i think chat here better.. msn is lagging my pc..

12th day in aussie

2008-10-31T09:48:00.003+11:00

lol.. i think i pressed publish post without writing anything juz now.. o.O

now here's 10am which means u all are still sleeping.. lol..

thx to everybody's 'great' memory n 'awesome' pronunciation here.. i have a new name, JIN.
"hello?? is dis jin??"
"JIIIIIIIIIIN, come out for a while"
"jin, tell mummy to smile more"
"jin, so do u like it here?"
"jin, u look like ur mom"
=.=
i hate dis name.. i realli miss my real name especially my chinese 1.. T.T ever since coming here, i NEVER heard anyone call my real name la, wat bout chinese..

i miss my baby A LOT!!! i wan my baby T.T i think im going crazy.. u noe wat happen yesterday??
when i was going back to my room, i felt that Cutie was here.. den i kinda hallucinated Cutie jumping off the bed n coming to greet me.. lol.. i think im crazy..

den last night, u noe wat i dreamed??
i dreamed that i was still in australia but all my buddies were here too including cs, samantha, xian, thung, yvonne, phui yee, amanda, wen qin, pei yun.... EVERYBODY!! but somehow cs n samantha appear more.. o.O den i duno wat 'we' were doing but i laughed so hard in my dream, i actually laughed out loud in real life, den i woke up.. lol.. am i really going crazy?? u guys stop haunting me la.. xD

missing u guys a lot.. but missing my baby more.. xD

12th day in aussie

2008-10-31T09:48:00.000+11:00

11th day in aussie

2008-10-30T22:07:00.002+11:00

juz came back from a dinner with my grandaunt.. damn full.. ever since coming here, all i do is:
- eat
- sleep
- watch tv
- read storybooks
- walk around(a bit)

maybe im starting skul next week.. T.T help..

anyway tomoro's gonna be HOT!! the news says it's gonna be 36 degree celcius here.. n guess wat?? i finally broke the high score for snake xenzia in my phone, 2320!! haha.. anyone can beat that?? xD

peace out.. =)

still the same day.. lol

2008-10-29T23:48:00.002+11:00

elooooo.. im back..

bout my newspaper job.. well.. its too tiring for me n my mom-- helloo?? 250 newspapers n we're suppose to carry all the way-- so yeah, we canceled it.. so now that means we're jobless-- again =.=

im desperate for my old life back..

good night.. =)

10th day in aussie

2008-10-29T19:54:00.002+11:00

lol.. 2 days no post liao.. feel very sien to blog la.. oni talkin bout my boring day..

anyway guess wat?? i finally found 1 thing that is cheaper here than malaysia.. n that's is....
*ta-da* MCD'S ICE CREAM!! xD is oni 30sens here without tax.. which means rm0.84.. lol.. lame i noe..

n do u noe, u can actually bring home the trollies from the supermarket.. after unloading the stuff, u put it outside ur hse den some ppl will come n collect it back.. dis is becos some shop dun provide plastic bag.. =.=

these 3 days i went to the Borders bookstore to read some storybooks the whole day.. that's wat i meant bout my boring day.. anyone got better suggestions on how to spend my lifeless day??? but dun think i'll be spending much time like this.. maybe i'll be going to school soon.. n im scared.. T.T

k la.. blog later.. i wan SUGGESTIONS!!! xD

7th day in aussie..

2008-10-26T19:00:00.001+11:00

YES!! finally it's hot!! the sun! i love u so much.. xD finally i can wear t-shirt n go out.. bye thick jackets.~

nothing much to say le.. hmm.. yesterday i went to my grandaunty's hse..her hse was so damn big i tell u.. i had the best bbq ever.. lol.. actually that was my second bbq oni.. xD

weee.. soon i'll be free to walk around the neighbourhood.. my rented room is oni 5 minutes away from the shopping mall.. n it's damn save here..

when im free n in the mood, i'll take some photos n put it here for u guys to see la..

kk.. that's it.. remember to vote the polls!!!!

FIRST post!!! =)

2008-10-24T21:38:00.000+11:00

kay.. let's see.. first time blogging duno wat to post la.. hmmmm..

today's my 5th day in aussie.. n im damn freaking COLD!!! duno how the locals stand it.. but its gonna be summer so i guess its getting hotter.. i wan the SUN!!!

anyway.. my tattoo is coming off.. T.T now left a bit oni..

dis feel like a dream la.. 1 moment im living a normal life in malaysia, den before i noe it, im in aussie.. feel sooooo sesated.. help!! i dun wanna go to skul.. i'll be mixing with ppl that are 1 year YOUNGER than me!!! sad anot??

im homesick.. someone buy my ticket back.. pleaseeee..

k.. i think that's it.. miss you guys n malaysia's weather!! =)