Life..........

will my life ever be the same?? will it ever be back to normal?? will i ever move on??



so many question i wanna ask and KNOW the answers. things i actually wanna noe but can never get the answers. yet things i wish in my whole life i would never knew and be able to live my innocent life, where everything is perfect. okay maybe not perfect, but at least more perfect than my world now.



i WANT!!:



- to play basketball with xian, thung, yvonne, py, and so many more.

- to play badminton with practically the same ppl above including chiasing this time.

- to learn tennis like wat i promised chiasing after pmr is over.

- to continue learning hip hop wif thung, lai mun, schew ee

- to learn guitar wif xian, py, cs.

- to play wif my baby, see her greet me everytime, smell her, touch her.

- to see the twins fight n scream everyday when im back from skul, to hear them calling jie jie.

- to feel once again that im HOME.



im juz not moving on and coping this whole situation as well as clarice i guess. i feel lost. i feel tired. can i turn back the clock to 3 years ago?? can i get things i actually want?? even last year feels like it was 10 years ago. everything is going so fast. i cant catch up. i cant think. i cant even catch my breath. can i actually go back 16 years ago and tell god (if theres really 1) never to create me???