FINALLY!!

Hohoho. it's been 5months since i touched this blog.

im just gonna do a short update. when i mean short i mean really short.

as most of u know. im home sweet home ;D so happy!
but now im bored!! wanna go port dickson la. someone organise PLEASE!

ok that's it. byeee *poof*

this is gonna be an emo post. so yeah...

aiyo. i dont feel myself la! why?!! when i see my photos or my own reflection that time, i feel like im looking at a stranger la. why?!!! it is me, but it isnt too. but the best thing is when i look into my eyes, i dont feel anything familiar. it's like the eyes have no expression, no feeling. the eyes are dead.

p.s. juz for ur info, this is blog is only for my malaysian friends nia. no one in aussie knows i have this blog.

OMG!! finally blogger works~ yipee~ lame i know. LOL!

anyway omg la!! i cant wait for november. but still so long. got to go through my major exam end of year first T.T

this is the latest update of my nicknames.

- GoldenSpider

- SummerBlue

- SammyBoii/Sammy

- RandomMe/Random

- Ah Zhi/Zhi

- JayZee

- JinJee (somehow some of my frens cant pronounce 'Z'. LOL!)

- JZ

- Jimbee

- Xiao Jin Jin (i hate this)

- Jin (i hate this)

- Zhi (i also hate this)

Jin is a lot of korean guy's name and Zhi is a singaporean guy's name =.= and most ppl think Jin Zhi is a guy's name. my science teacher wrote in my report: 'HIS mid-year exam was dissapointing. HE needs to improve... HIS ...' go die la. im a GIRL la!!

it's HOLIDAY now!! =D wee~ 2 weeks~ but i got so many assessments and assignments lo. got speech somemore. then the second week of hols i need to do volunteer work in a bookshop. thanks to my dearest mom lo. from 8am-1pm, which means i got to reach train station at 7am, which also means i need to wake up at 6am. and all this for NO PAY!!

im getting lazy to blog again >.<

so man man wait for the next post ba~

and HAPPY SWEET 16 to all these ppl through out the year!

schew ee, amanda, pei yun, kai xian, jia qian, clarice~

and my ah gong ah ma, stanley chai, wei tar, stanley eng.

prof thung says :

gao dim the countdown timer at last :D

nice leh nice leh :D

If cant see the "What I'm Waititng For" part,

reload the page again and again and again,

or cclose and reopen the page again,

until u can see it :D

i don't feel myself..
i feel like a stranger.. why??

That’s Not Me
I look at the reflection of a stranger.
Somehow alien and familiar.
It would have been funny.
If only it wasn’t true.

The owner of those eyes is me.
The owner of that nose is me.
The owner of that mouth is me.
The owner of those ears is me.

That’s not me!
That’s not me…

All of those are mine.
With the same shape and colour.
But there’s something empty and different.
It’s like the old, real me is inside.
Only covered with more flesh and scars from the past.

That’s not me!
That’s not me…

I see a person so familiar.
But her movement feels so alienated to me.
It’s her, the body’s hers.
But not those movement, not those expressions.

That’s not me!
That’s not me…

I hear a voice so familiar.
But the way it speaks, the words it says, feel so alienated to me.
It’s her, the voice’s hers.
But not those words, not those expressions.

That’s not me!
That’s not me…

What have I become?
Did someone or something claim my body?
Did I lost my soul somewhere during the journey?
Because that’s me..

why the hell is blogger not working properly?!!! i cant align this, i cant change font and colour!! wtf?! anywaayy...

i finally decided which subjects to choose! FINALLY! *wipes sweat*

english advanced = 2 units
maths = 2 units
maths extension = 1 units
biology = 2 units
chemistry = 2 units
chinese = 2 units
business studies = 2 units
psychology = 1 unit
TOTAL! = 14 units

14 is actually counted a lot. so i shall be superwoman for 2 years. >.<

blogger's not working again! =.=

anyway i very pening la!!! wat subjects shd i take?!!! we're choosing subjects for year 11!! i duno wat to choose!! minimum 12 units, basically each subjects got 2 units. this are the subjects im 100% taking:

english = 2 units
maths = 2 units
extension maths = 1 unit
chemistry = 2 units
biology = 2 units
phychology = 1 unit
chinese = 2 units
total = 12 units

but i wan take 1 more subject in case but i duno which to choose.

timber = 2 units
physics = 2 units
business studies = 2 units
economics = 2 units

i REALLY REALLY wanna take timber. something special and i like doing kerja kayu. BUT my theory about kayu damn teruk AND im scared i'll be the only girl AND i'll be a loner because nobody i know taking lo. wth maybe i'll even be the ONLY student taking timber. HELP!!!!! i scared suicide wei.

SHD I TAKE THE RISK?!!!

im damn pissed off.

my english teacher is forcing us to read a book, called '1984'. and guess when it was written.

1949!!!

the english not to say very deep la. but deep enough that in a page there's practically 10 words i duno. =.= and its talking about the 'future'. for us no la. but for the author at that time it was. it was written in 1949 and is about 1984. and i dont understand what it is trying to say. damn blur lo.

another thing is my mom. dont even know wat to say about her. I GIVE UP!!